Action speaks louder than word

You know a person love you deeply when he/she lose every little single game just to bear the penalties for you.

Appreciate them.

Lose and win never matters to me.

That's why I always lose... ><

Oh well,

As long as everyone happy.

x)

The curtain tells the wind

Only pig knows the piggy's secret.

x)

Lonely lonely New Year...

Things happened...

MOVE ON...

I don't feel alone when I'm one person

I feel alone when I'm surrounding by people

but I find myself so boring..

The more people surrounding,

the more lonely I feel

ZZzzz

All they know is STUDY!

Why are they so boring????????

><

This place is so no fun!

午后

爱是愚人的国度，看我们演得好辛苦。 =P

一个人也很好

神经病的我，下午12点去跑步

然后一个人坐了一个钟

风缓缓的吹

晒着太阳

不停的思考

我想我喜欢一个人享受

就这样不受打扰的午后

Anyway poem

People are often unreasonable,
Illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you're honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
They may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,

It is between you and God;

It was never you and them anyway

In life journey, if you want to go fast, go alone but if you want to go far, go together with the people you love

Go back to December

就像时钟，可以回到起点，但已不是昨天！
看回照片，心里还是有很多感动
今年的十二月，过得很有意义
明年会更好

Definitely the time I'd love to go back
But I can't
Memory worth cherish for life time!

Blessed day

From this morning,sweet and warm chocolate tang yuan by a course mate
to unexpected OSCE result
to joyful church Christmas decoration
to relaxing acoustic singing with friends
to yummy satay and ice cream
last but not least,some free time to clear my unfolded clothes.

Today indeed a blessed day!
Thank You,Lord!
I'm happy

Church is home in Kelantan

那就这样吧

好想消失到无忧无虑的世界里
那里是否有你

今早又梦见你了
心又沉了一下
整天都魂不守舍的

告诉自己
梦醒了，就不要赖床

或许在你对我客气的那一刻
我们已经不是那回事了

胃药

乖乖吃药吧
要快快好起来哦！
:)

Hopefully the tears can bring away all the sadness

People remember you when they need your car,your camera,your help...
Well,at least I still have value...
God bless people with kind heart,right?
I should have faith..
Try not to think that people is using me
but...SIGH 过不了自己那一关
Sigh,gastric is seriously making me feel bad.

Why am I always crying when I write my blog?
Why do I cry alot during this semester?
Why do I feel so burden when I'm blessed with so many things?
Am I selfish? not willing to share?
I feel miserable...
Lord,teach me what to do

:(

little updates

You used to be so important to me.
But now,you're just another normal friend.
Mad,I did stupid thing when I'm angry.
Should not do that again.
I thought I won't forget,
but as the time goes by,
I've forgotten almost everything
Forgot the pain you give
Forgot the smile you put on my face
Time has slowly take its place
And I'm forgetting you...

BORNExtraOrdinary!
Borneo night has officially gone into history.
They cleaned the hall,removed the chairs and flower pots.
BYE~~~
The best memory I will cherish for lifetime.
Word can't express how much I 舍不得 borneo night.
Two inspiring people that motivated me alot
First,Pearl Cheah.. She is awesome,just as her production.
Second,Seah Shu Yen.. Responsible and committed. Best partner ever!
Both of them "stimulate" my kiasu-ness in a good way
and work real hard to achieve the thing I want.
And Thank You,daddy God.
I know You have blessed me alot!
All my exams,I got good score which I think I don't deserve.
Thank you everyone,each and everyone who stay by me during ups and downs.
I love you all!

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy.

Peacefulness for Christmas.
I longing for...

Miserable week

It is miserable..
I hate being here...
Sigh...
I don't dare to call my mum thou I miss her alot
Thought of the situation,I already started to cry.
Really can't imagine what would it be if I call her.
I need a shoulder to really cry out loud...

Why there ain't anyone listening?
I'm depressed... very
:(

Wipe my tears,
tomorrow will be just fine..
Yeah,God is always there...

Never been this stress before...
Oh God...
I....

Move on

buat apa susah,buat apa susah,susah itu tiada gunanya...
><
when you emo,eat nasi goreng belacan.
Then you'll know life is not the worst.

I hate this!

Don't you hate it
when you don't know how to start your work?

freak out

Let me sigh...
I'll continue later...
:(

Why so many things?
>.<

Define selfishness

No matter how close a person to you
sometimes you'd still feel like
they are selfish.
Oh well,definitely I am too
Nobody is perfect.
Once again,a phone call has ruined my day
Absolutely not a good way to start
It is holiday,man

I pray that everything will go smoothly
I pray for Your strength and inspiration
I'm not capable to do this but
with God,nothing is impossible
I just have to trust Him

Special Gift

The most precious thing you can give to a person is
your TIME

Helpless

I don't know who should I tell
but I think I screwed up my exam this morning.
Sigh...
Hopefully it wasn't that bad.

I feel miserable.
Who can I tell?

=(

Tomorrow another paper,
no matter how hard I tried to concentrate
I can't understand

My confidence is crashing...
What should I do?

One more day,
MOVE ON!!!

孤单是不是自由的附属品？

她说，
若是我生病能让你的脚步停下来,
不用到处奔波,为人事物烦恼,我愿意生病

其实，
我害怕了
一个朋友对我太好
总觉得不现实
不靠谱

我要自由
独来独往
可是
又奢望有个懂我的人

我的脚步不想再为谁停留
但
希望我们迈着同样的步伐
朝着同样的目标
一起成长，一起加油！

别叫我停下来
陪着我前进
可以吗？
=)


我們喜歡的，

要么錯過了，

要么已經有主了；

喜歡我們的，

總覺得缺少一種感覺。

於是我們抱著追求真感情的態度，

尋找愛情，

可是總覺得交際面太窄，

沒有辦法認識理想的類型；

於是我們抱著寧缺毋濫的態度，

自由著，

孤單著……

值得

釋然一顆心，

坦然一份情。

不管你樂不樂意接受，

不管你是否準備好接受，

也不管你是否有能力自控，

時間都會帶來許許多多或喜或悲的衝擊。

風也罷雨也罷，

你要做的、

你能做的就是以寧靜的心去承載，

以坦然的胸懷去面對

I'm suffering...
physically and mentally

Sorry to make you cry

She said I'm very disappointed of you.
For the very first time,I felt...really guilty
Maybe I've hurt her deeply.

Sigh...
Sorry....no cure.
I said it.
Hopefully we can forget about all these
and communicate more effectively next time.

I'm sorry.

Much to be learnt,I'm learning

Struggling to understand
this world...
Society is like a mirror.
You smile to it,it smiles to you.
You scold it,it scold you back.
most importantly,it reveals what type of person you are.

难过了

除了不开心，还是不开心

Post holiday

Shoot,I forgot everything...
thanks for reminding
I feel pressure now.

ZZzzz

Take me home

Feel like running away...
But don't know where can I go...

Let me go home,just for a while
to see my mum,my dog,my sisters...

I just miss them,very much

First step succeeded!

Two people said I slim down already!
So happy to hear that!
HAHAHA!

I've done something impossible!
Now,I wanna do another impossible thing!
SCORE VERY VERY GOOD FOR TITAS!
In God,Thru God,With God,
there is nothing impossible.

FIGHTING!!

谢谢你

那些年坐在我隔壁桌的女孩打电话给我耶
几温暖一下~
:)

有种力不从心
夹着重重自卑的感觉

回忆，一直是我的弱点
没有人可以说
没有人可以让我放心地说
只好把它藏在被窝

我也想去看星星....

Attention

When I'm quiet,
I wish that someone will constantly talk to me.
Or at least quiet together la.
Not ignoring me
or ask me whether I'm sleeping..
==

Btw,most of the time I'm quiet
because I find myself not fit into current situation
This is happening more often recently.

Shyt,I'm like a kid seeking for attention.
How stupid is that!

Dear dad,

Just realized that couldn't write anything especially emo thing in facebook anymore
He has been asking alot recently..
He has been asking TOO MUCH
I received at least 5-6 calls per day...
Every little single thing,he'd call and ask.
I know he cares but I don't like it..

Anyways,
he's dad...
and I shouldn't take things for granted.

Have a safe trip to China,dad!

Shoot,what wrong with my stupid mood!?
URGH!
I should go to bed now.

孤独原来是这样的

只是哪怕周围再多人
感觉还是一个人

为什么我会变得如此“灰”？？
我都快不认识自己了

:)

迷失自己

你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她我你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她你他她

A new day

I know it is another brand new day
I'm not excited about it
Knowing everything gonna repeat just like yesterday
It is an ordinary day.

This morning,
You came and printed your notes,
I know you don't want to trouble me.
But thank you,at least you guys thought of me
when you need help.
"Thank you" will do.
Free of charge

Like it when you touched my head
and said
"又瘦了"
是心疼我吗？
"我带你去吃早餐吧!"
:)

One of my friend text me this morning,
it seemed like she's asking for help
but I wasn't sure.
It was a complicated feeling
between help or not to help
I still called her after that,
relieved coz everything goes fine.

I'm always willing to help
as long as I can
as long as I don't think that you're using me

Thou sometimes I might think more
I wasn't giving willingly
in the end,I'll still help
I bet everyone does...

Lord,check me when I murmur
like now..

O

my "O" inherited from my dad.
xD

好山好水好无聊

静静呆着？不可能


娱乐自己？偶尔可以


崇尚自由的我，到底适合作什么？
天啊，我快闷死了！！

I don't feel like doing anything

Someone please motivate,control,slap,wake,alarm,alert me!
*hop hop hop*

Worst attitude this semester.
Sheez

I lost myself.. URGH

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

Misunderstanding

Yesterday I was like
"YaY,finally I've finished my peng/piah/香饼
a big packet,
around 20 biji-s.
A friend bought from Ipoh.
I used 2 weeks to finish 'em



This morning when I woke up,
WHAT???
My table had 1,2,3,4
4 more hiong peng???
OMG,what happened?
My roomie who just came back
told me,"I bought for you one,hui sang!"
...

Gosh,don't tell me,
she misunderstood I like to eat this peng
since I eat this almost everyday for the past 2 week...

Now,
Anyone wanna share with me?
;)

HAHAHA

I looked back my past and laughed,
How naive was I to hold on to you..
You looked back your past and cried,
How stupid were you to let go of me..

We're all fooled...
;)

Forgive,don't forget

Reassemble all the broken pieces
Am I the only one doing this?

I've accepted it,finally.
At least the hard feeling slowly fade away
I don't feel that horrible remembering it

How hard I forced myself
it is impossible to forget?
It was my past.
Forgiveness plays an important role then.

She told me,
Embarrassment,won't last.
Sadness won't...
Nothing does...

The other side of you

In a society,

there's always people who talk alot but do nothing

on the other hand

there's always people who do everything but never mention.

The real stressful me and you

DISASTER

I'm broke.

Doing some illegal business.

Tee-hee!

Sienz

Stressed out for my single room next year.
Alah... What for?

Sabar sabar!

CANNOT,I'm so the very stressful!

URGH~!

Frustration

The most frequent question recently,

WHEN?

Everything when when when?

OMG,I'm so sick of it la!

Technology thingy

CF T-shirt promo video is awesome!

I believe she can make my creativity into reality.

:)

Deep in my heart,

still want to be a doctor.

Aikss.. why so stubborn?

Scribbles.

When I closed my eyes

I forgot the reason why I hate you

Remembered the gentleness

Why you let go of my hand

I tried to understand life is full of uncertainties

People comes and goes

I'm searching for happiness in dark

Waiting for that meteor to light up my sky

Why must we learn

after every hurtful goodbyes

Why must we regret

after seeing each other cried

Who am I

to you

I want to listen

what would you answer

The joy of serving...

When I shared umbrella with a friend today,

I thought of this..

Stop waiting for the right person to come into your life,

be the right person to walk into someone's life.

Perhaps I'm not that useless,

I'm not dumped by anybody,

I'm not abandoned by anybody.

I just need to walk out from my misfortune,

help others and be happy.

:)

Just wanna say...

I'm sorry...

Crap

Great,the migraine is here.

Urgh,my head...

Homesick

I miss mummy and I wish I can go home.

:(

I don't know how.

I'm so limited.

I don't know how to teach,

don't know how to lead,

don't know how to make them better.

All I can do is be with them.

I'm indeed so limited.

I know everything but good at nothing.

Haizz...

I feel so sorry for them.

hugging a friend.

She gently place her ear on mine.

Although I don't know what happened,

I hope she heard what my heart whispered,

Be strong,girl.

Sometimes,a hug can express so much.

At the same time,energy is transferred..

When I'm weak,you raised me up.

When I cried,you encouraged and wiped my tear.

When you need me,I'll be there.

Anytime,anywhere..

The least I can do...

And thing like this doesn't need thank you.

:)

Hope you feel better now,my friend.

Someone has reminded me

I get jealous easily.

==

Now,I know why I'm not happy.

This kinda people...

This is so annoying,sickening and STUPID!

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DO IT,

DON'T PROMISE ME BEFORE THIS,

I CAN DO IT MYSELF.

ONCE YOU PROMISED IT,

AND I'VE GIVEN YOU THE THING,

I WON'T TAKE IT BACK.

DO IT!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRR!

*CHOP CHOP CHOP*

Daring to be different.

When I stand up and take the challenge,

then I realized there are many people supporting me.

Everywhere I go,there are always friends asking how are you?

and jia you is everywhere...anytime I walk around the campus.

Their smile and caring have calmed and gave me strength each day.

That is the time to know more friends,

That is the time to know who are your friends.

Those who are there will always support you.

Not forgetting nobody can beat my family,

especially your parents.

I talked more to my dad and mum recently.

Probably because of the car,

probably because of facebook...

I'm just a little bit guilty I have not much time for them.

The way they care is the best heaven gift from God.

Not asking for anything but for the sake of own daughter's happiness.

Family = Father and mother I love you.

Family means nobody can be left behind.

I miss them...alot!

People around constantly remind me,

to be gratitude

and may all the glory to God.

Indeed,I try to see God thru each warmth I received..

Sometimes,things might looked bad,

but everytime it turned out to the best.

God always has a plan for me.

And I believe it is the best one.

Pray that I have faith and faith and somemore faith

to believe this even when I'm down to the valley..

Yes or no?

Some people said :

When you feel like giving up,

remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

When the reason is no longer there,

can I give up???????

Sound pollution

What are they doing?

The mosque has a distance from the campus,

yet so loud the speakers.

So annoying meh...

I can't study~~~

T.T

我想我真的难过了

我想我真的难过了

忘了上一次带着泪痕睡觉是几时

可是，感觉是一样的

心很痛

去刷牙的时候，看着镜子里的自己

好丑

哭过就好了

心痛对我予取予求

只是暂时的

会过去的

那是难过的声音

那是心碎的声音

在静静的夜里如此清晰

真实的我，

那会难过的我

内心的我

谢谢你让开朗的我见到你

要擦去眼泪

扬起头不哭泣

从心出发！

软弱的我呀，要加油哦！

:)

自慰（自我安慰）

老师没教

但

要学会的三句话

:)

The worst pain is when I have to smile just to keep the tears from falling, and sleep just to forget how it hurts.

Why,she famous kah?

Yeah,I'm not famous.

Neither did I want/claim to be.

But honestly,those words stung.

I don't know why.

I still like the way my secondary school friends be happy for me.

It is like very very happy and you don't really have to be worried so much

'coz you know they are there no matter happy or not.

The people here are...cold I'd say.

Oh well,we're all busy most probably.

Environment stops us from caring.

What else can I say?

Play 一半 by 叮当

Exactly how I feel now.

Lack of someone to share my joy,the joy is halved.

Not only burden,sometimes happiness also need to be shared.

Lord,teach me to be humble.

And not to think too much...

PS : officially Chinese Cultural Night(CCN) president,I am...

BIG event wow! Excited but a little bit of worry. Unavoidable. Do my best,God do the rest.

Mum gonna be so proud. Tee-hee..

PS2:Dad buying me a car. I'm so excited and can't wait to see him and the car.

Wakakakakakakaka! XDDD

NEVERMIND IF I'M NOT FAMOUS,I'M HAPPY FOR WHO I AM AND WHAT I HAVE.

ALL THE GLORY TO GOD,ALONE AND FOREVER!

AMEN.

Listen to me...

:(

Awesome day.

Being alone doesn't bother me that much today.

In fact,I feel ok when I'm alone today.

Nothing is happier than people remembering what they promised and fulfil it.

I love you,dad!

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy!

Well,sometimes people cheer me up with little sweet thing they've done.

I'm thankful for that.

:)

Finally,you're here.

Menstrual pain!!!!

:(

梦太美，回忆太心碎

去了我们一起走过的地方

景物依旧，人事全非

那个地方很美，有很多回忆

可是不适于逗留，因为回忆太心碎了

没有兑现的承诺太承重了

只要不想起你说过的话，我就不会难过

没有遇见你就好了，

也许我就不会在脆弱的时候，

想念你

Dear Lord,

Why is it so hard?

Holy Spirit,empower me,

give me strength and courage...

I place my trust fully in You,Lord.

If God bring you to it,

He will bring you through it.

I think I saw you..

Wake up and back to reality.

The inner me,long to meet you in another dream.

PEST!

Some people are like ants.

They are hardworking but moving other people's food.

Tia guna!

A phone call...

Ah mi said don't too stress.

Since I've decided to be a good girl,

I will try not to be stressed,

by doing preparation earlier,

rather than last minute task.

I've had enough!

Lord,check me when I'm procrastinating.

Amen!

I want to go home too!

People are weird.

No,I'm weird...

I didn't seem to enjoy thing that much recently.

Why?

And little thing get on my nerve easily.

Urgh,what's up mood swing!

They are going home...

I want too...

If happiness is a choice,can I be happy?

Friendship

This is so childish but it is so true.

Regardless how old you are,you'll still long for a good friend.

Someone you can count on...

I thought I can find one here,

However,this is how friend from university disappointed me.

Afterall,I'll only be here for 4 years.

I mean 3 more years.

Neither I'll stay any longer.

Nor I want to...

Treat your good friend nicely,

because they stay.

Accept and forgive your used-to-be-good-friend,

for once,they had warmed your hands with theirs.

Let it be God's will.

Stop hatred,plant love...

:)

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy.

Heart palpation

Why ah?

I didn't remember I took any caffeine..

And every breath I take hurts(exaggerated)

It's raining outside!

After I came back from cina stall and CF!

Thank GOD!

Oh what a wonder I wonder You are,

You hide the sun and let it rain~

Pouring food into my stomach..

Had a great lunch...

bbq chicken and lady fingers

Nurani serves delicious bbq chicken!

Yum...

No more spicy food.

My stomach had enough of it.

No,I should say,I should not eat so much spicy food.

Pimples coming out.

After eating a big pack of rice,I feel like eating again!

Sheez,stomach oh stomach...

you ok kah?

GYA GYA GYA~~~~

Journey

On my own feet!

Down to earth...

la la la~

The only thing I enjoy in Kelantan.

Photoshooting.

Other than that,no comment.

I wish I can capture a rainbow.

At least once,here...

Today,I learnt and I tell myself....

Since I've given a life,I have the responsibility to live it to the fullest.

If you never fall,you won't know how to pick yourself up.

I'm glad that things aren't worst,grateful for the healing and thankful for the caring friends.

My sky will still be the same...

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.

It means that you've decided to look beyond imperfection.

Movie day!

I watched 命运化妆师 this morning. Taiwan movie,by Sonia Sui. She is still very elegant and pretty. Quite heavy to watch early in the morning 'coz it is kinda sad. A very complex feeling with complicated plot in it. It made me think for a while. Not recommended for emo and think too much people like me. HAHAHAAHA! But,I tend to like this kinda movie. It is like I can feel what the characters feel.

Next,Hello Stranger. It is a Thai movie filmed in Korea. Apparently,Thai has come out with many nice movie these few years. Oh well,so far I've only watched two love stories. hahahahaha... When I told people,I'm watching Thai movie. People were like ghost film? No,no... That comes to my mind the first time I heard of Thai movie too. Anyway,it's a love comedy. It is hilarious and relaxing,highly recommended if you'd like to laugh out loud. ;)

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy. :)

Problem makes us stronger.

Thank You for letting this happened on me.

Each day,I learn to be a better person.

You know how hard it is...

Thus,I beg Thee,

Let me have a place to rest

after my mission has completed.

Life goes on no matter what happened.

I can't cry,

No,I don't want to cry.

No,tears are not allowed!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

I feel like screaming!!!

Anyways,

It's a good start.

I should do it more often.

Take it slowly,

and I'm letting You

to guide..

and heal...

:)

I love Jesus.

Simple kinda friendship

Hey friends,

as long as you don't push me away,

I'll stand by you.

Want a bet?

You can count on me like 1,2,3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it

I can count on you like 4,3,2

you'll be there

'coz that's what friends are suppose to do

Oh yeah~

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry~~~

You can count on me 'coz I can count on you.

-Count on me-

You're the wind.

Love is like the wind,you can't see it

but you can feel it.

Little incident.

Oh Borneo Night

What a bother!

Argghhh....

I can't study!

Partner ah partner,

can you please don't be so kancheong?

you make me very stressed neh...

...........

Calm down..

Phew~

选.择.

恨一个人太累了

我放弃

这都是我自找的

要不是我的心软

你连让我生气的资格

都没有

你无权再动摇我的世界

时间会冲淡一切的

一定会....

A lousy morning

The more you don't want it to happen,

the more it comes against you.

Ants,I really do hate you,you know?

You get on my nerves.

I'm so gonna kill you ALL!!!!

Finally,you've decided to give up,

things come back again.

I DON'T WANT ANYMORE!!!

DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT DON'T WANT

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

URGH! Damnit.

Annoying people in usmkk

When you hate a person,everything he/she does annoyed you.

Absolutely true.

I don't know why until now,I still hate him.

And honestly,I was so happy that he didn't get the post...

I won't vote for you,

mehhhh,loser!

Hohohohoho...

Remember me?

Remember us?

We used to walk together,gossip together,talk together,laugh together,study together,play together,tease each other,hug each other,comfort each other...

Now,we can barely smile to each other and say hi.

Since when?

:)

Hope you're doing well...

Switch.

When every songs you listening

hurt you.

It's time to change channel.

给自以为是的你

无视我的无所谓，

有一天，你会发现，

我留下的空缺，

那时，也许我的无所谓真的，

无所谓了。

这世界没有谁没了谁活不下去，

不然你要怎么解释，

遇见你之前的我，

有多自在，快乐。

你可以继续伤害我，

然后道歉，

伤害，再道歉。。

我会学着

无所谓。。。。

I'm nervous.

I think I'm panic.

because I'm hyper.

According to sister,

This is pre-exam syndrome.

But I don't have exam tomorrow.

Only clinical.

Pre-clinical posting syndrome related to kintio-ness secondary to hyperactive evidenced by patient keep talking talking talking and laughing laughing laughing.

To be honest

Estherification

Yesterday,

one of my junior said why so cold?

Today,a friend of mine,sama batch

said I'm aloof and proud.

My roomate said I'm emo,sometimes.

That I agreed.

HAHAHAHA~~~

I'm like that mah when I don't smile.

I don't know how to show that I'm not.

==

btw,do I look distant when I'm tired??

Or when I'm quiet?

sweet daoo....

Ok,I know I said I wanted to sleep

but senior popped out from nowhere.

and handed me a bowl of green bean soup...

Awwww... how sweet.

However,I sudah gosok gigi.

ps before this,I just had a bowl of red bean dumpling soya bean.

Would I get diabetes?

Aiya,nevermind la...

got people sayang,gosok 100 kali pun ok.

Won't get diabetes I suppose.

But need to jog more lo.

Sheez,I'm fat...

LOLx

Thank you,someone...

I love my CG leaders,

they are awesome people.

Oh Thursday..

Time flies.

3 weeks gone.

Next week masuk wad again

Lotsa preparation

Lotsa revision to do

So little time..

=\

I felt that you are not right tonight,

but I didn't say it.

Hopefully I'm wrong...

:)

Choir was ok.

Mary went to choir!

She is my big sister...

A person I can so manja to.

HAHAHAAAA~~

Everyone so semangat.

Sing for God!

I like!

I want to take pictures...

Playing badminton tomorrow.

Zzzz...

Oh gosh,11pm dy.

I haven't done my homework.

whatever,sleep first!

Good night.

ps : I miss my family and my friends.

I'm afraid,for this moment.

I found that I always have a hard time

switching myself back to reality

after all the ups and downs.

Forgot how to stay calm...

Emo never really leaves me

Stress never really leaves me

They are essential to push me go forward

At the same time,

I'm scared...

To someone,I have a gift.

Which I've been keeping since May.

It was,it is,it will be inside my bag,

Forgive me,I don't have the courage to give.

I wished I didn't buy it initially.

The word stuck in my throat never voice out,

The msg stuck in my draft box never sent out,

I don't know how we end up here.

But trust me,I'm having a hard time

coping with life without talking to you.

Oh well,life...

Friends come and go,

I understand.

Things will get better.

One day,I'll be good enough

to face this world without fear!

I promise myself,

I'll stay strong...

PS: how can she find me with just one word EMO. Do I really look sad? ==

I want to study!

Ok,I've been running away from revision.

Exam is near.

9th of October.

Please........

Make me read the notes.

*dead*

How nice if I can fool around like nobody business...

=X

Incomplete love.

"Don't hold on anything too tight,but you have to hold it tight enough so that it doesn't drift away"

Stay close together,and nothing shall separate us.

I'll hold on for a moment,but you can't expect me to wait forever.

We have to move on... both of us.

And we all know nothing lasts forever...

Team Medical Dragon

is AWESOME!

'Coz you're amazing

Early in the morning,

If I have the chance,

I'd love to listen to Bruno Mars'

Just The Way You Are.

Like what I'm listening now.

Today is a brand new day.

With Your blessing and grace,

I'm gonna live life to the fullest.

Amen!

Just a little reflection.

You know,I can actually count myself as the lucky one. Despite being placed in Kelantan,I have friends from all around the world to cheer for me. Once I have a little of uncertain or insecurity,there is always someone who cares. Maybe a long lost friend,or a stranger who I have just known for a few minutes. People around never failed to touch my life and uplift me when thing doesn't turn out to be that good. Previously,I used to think I'm forced to be optimistic because that is the only thing I can do in this terrible place or when something bad happened. I'm always deceiving myself... However,I realized being optimistic is actually a gift from God. To be gratitude makes me notice that there are still people who loves me. Most importantly,Jesus loves me. I know this better now.

No news is good news.

Got a shocking news from Facebook today.

Until now,I still feel....blank.

But I really do sympathy him and his family.

Maybe he had been thru alot,

too much of pain and pressure.

And he is free from all these now.

I'm not encouraging people to commit suicide.

Suicide is never the way to solve problem.

However,as we read in the paper,

he is sick... so what can you say?

Is committing suicide really a sin?

Straight away go to hell?

no exception?

I don't know how to pray for him,

I don't know where will him be after this.

Heaven? Hell?

Am I thinking too much?

Is this part of God's plan?

Many thoughts in my mind,know?

Oh,I just hope he rest in peace.

And bless his family,dear Lord.

They have been thru alot...

Have mercy..

Now,I really very scared to hear from someone.

Perhaps no news is good news.

Everyone healthy,good and safe.

The least I asked for....

Hurray!!!!!!!!

First step accomplished.

Thought I won't be able to finish the jog/walk.

Phew~

But I feel better after exercise.

Nice nice feeling!

I eventually feel LIGHTER.

LOLx

Should do more next time!

Tomorrow.

I know my roomates will motivate me,

especially that crazy girl.

Energetic betul dia.

==

I'm back,cattails!!

I'm back,blue sky!!!!

I'm back,KELANTAN!!!!!

I'm alive!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

Commitment.

Pray,

Think,

Speak,

Act,

Do homework,

Treat people,

Laugh,

Cry,

Live my life.

Thou it hurts sometimes,

do it whole-heartedly.

Emptiness..

I was very busy these two weeks.

But I don't know what did I do...

My heart is so confused.

However,

I don't feel emo.

Just very empty..

And the time is slow as in

I've been here for two weeks

feel like already two months

On the other side,I feel that the time is fast

because it seems like many things undone...

That's why I said,

I'm confused...

Hmmmmmmmmm

*hugging OnNom and ponder*

LIKE!

AHHHHH!

ON NOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*beams like him*

Thank you,Athena Chai!!!

Omg,I'm so excited when I received this...in Kelantan.

/=.=\

I gonna hug this and sleep!

GYAaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

=DDDD

Roomate chia me makan babi.

=X

It is indeed a happy day!

I'm a lucky girl!!!

xD

1am

I don't feel like doing homework.

=X

Action speaks louder than word

My sister is awesome,indeed!

Throughout the years,

many people have told me,

"I'll be there for you when you need me."

But they didn't prove it.

They didn't show it...

Maybe they did but I just couldn't feel it.

I'm touched,this time....

thou little thing.

:D

No doubt,my sister did it.

Zzz

Ouch,Hepatitis B vaccination.

Arm-sore...

AA,why you treat me so?

There are absolutely many things that are beyond my control.

I pray for the best,that's all I can do and learning to do.

Hopefully I can get it. :)

pretty pretty please!

I'm so tired,man.

Half day gone...

Heavy...

Even the sky cried when it is too heavy...

Friends who care

Love you all very much...

Thank You,daddy Lord.

:)

大学生涯

进大学的最大愿望

就是

赶快毕业！

Missing home...

I missed dad and mum,

way too much....

:')

Love is an ability.

An ability to show someone how much we care about them.

I won't,

No,I don't want somebody else.

I just want you to be there.

Prove to me you'd be there for me,

when I need you.

I wish you were here.

But,you ain't...

:(

IMY

..........

:)

Doesn't sound right reading this,

but I somehow touched by this letter.

It is a girl,student nurse wrote to another staff nurse before her death.

The last part, it says :

If only we could be honest, both admit of our fears, hold one another. If you really care, would you lose so much of your valuable professionalism if you even cried with me? Just person to person? Then it might not be so hard to die-in a hospital-with friends close by.

Slowly,

We are trained to be robots,

to be efficient,confident and stuff.

Maybe after long period of time,

we'll see death as a routine.

When sense of insecurity approaches,

will we still remember standing up there,

telling everyone,studying nursing because we wanna help people?

Never forget why am I here.

To care and love...

Only then my effort is worth it.

sick

I haciu and water come out from my nose.

=,= Flu,apa macam lu datang kacau?

Sigh...

I do sigh alot recently.

not that I want...

Immunity is so low while my emotion is so teruk.

I know they are somehow connected.

But how am I suppose to make myself happy?

Transition...

I need some time...

BIG SIGH

I know exactly how and what I feel now

Depression is approaching...

Sigh....

Why torture me?

Pek cheknye~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My current place

Basically like this...

SUNDAY!

Now you know how my bathroom look like?

:]

女生长得可以不美，但一定要有口德

认识我的人，都知道我嘴特别贱。所以这篇文章吸引了我

有口德的女孩子总会被人发现她的美好，要学会：
急事，慢慢的说；
大事，清楚的说；
小事，幽默的说；
没把握的事，谨慎的说；
没发生的事，不要胡说；
做不到的事，别乱说；
伤害人的事，不能说；
讨厌的事，对事不对人的说；
开心的事，看场合说；
伤心的事，不要见人就说；
别人的事，小心的说；
自己的事，听听自己的心怎么说；
现在的事，做了再说；
未来的事，未来再说；
知人不必言尽，留三分余地与人，留些口德与己。
责人不必苛尽，留三分余地与人，留些肚量与己。
才能不必傲尽，留三分余地与人，留些内涵与己。
锋芒不必露尽，留三分余地与人，留些深敛与己。
有功不必邀尽，留三分余地与人，留些谦让与己。

修炼中....

员工欢送会

昨晚去吃饭，然后去了唱K。终于吃到fish and chips了！太高兴了！ 哈哈！ 然后我喜欢唱歌，不，应该说我热爱唱歌。

但是。。

老板开了一箱的Heineken。我喝了一点点，感觉很糟。他们坚持要把我灌醉，好可怕。比强奸我还可怕，真的。

第一，我极度讨厌酒。可能是因为我爸的关系。

7个人，4男，3女。3个抽烟。天啊，想像一下.... 你被困在一间房间，火灾了，你逃不出来，周围烟雾弥漫，是不是很想死？够力咯！肺都黑了一半，真的。下不为例，打死我都不参加这种聚会/应酬。

第二，我痛恨抽烟。也是因为我爸的关系。

突然发现原来我爸对我的影响有这么大！哈哈哈

昨天其实还满好玩的，除了喝酒和抽烟。 ==Y

加油

忘了一点
趁现在短发
暂时当个帅帅女

哈哈哈！

努力让自己变漂亮

此时此刻

我好后悔把头发剪了

真的后悔了

不过我会好好地把它留回来

我要当美女！！！！

要让人眼前一亮

藉着部落格

我要对自己喊话

我要在明年

送自己一份最好的生日礼物

我要减肥，变美！！

加油！！！

要当个有自信的女人

要像蝴蝶般的蜕变

我会成功的！

气质好

品质好

素质好

我向往的....

我和你，一样吗？

突然好想你

你挥霍了我的爱
让我不敢再提起爱
开始信仰音乐
疗着你留下的伤

虽然突然想起你
心还是会揪一下的痛
可是我学会了感恩
感谢你让我期盼已久的爱
不完美

人生总有那么几次是
不完美的
谁都知道完美不可能
可是没有人不期待完美
所以我们不断努力
希望有一天可以接近完美
得到幸福

人说
幸福离我们很近，
只是我们忘了靠近

未知的幸福，你到了吗？
:)

Beginning is always the toughest!

Alright,

Finally there is some progress...

I deserve a good weekend.

and I got headache now.

Zzzz

Finger crossed,

Everything please be alright!

Uh wah~~!!

How to start?

Borneo night.

Zzzz

History of Sarawak.

Zzzz

What do I want?

Zzzz

What is your concept?

Zzzz

What is your plan?

Zzzz

Sh*t,I don't know.

Can help me?

:)

How to ask for help?

Since I don't know what I want?

ZZZ

I know!

Sheez,save me!

Ok,calm down,

Think....think....think....

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Ok,I'm crazy.

xD

:(

Photography.

I'm learning today.

And it is fun.

:D

倒墙

最近精神有点恍惚，茫然，无助....

很像四面八方的东西都向我倒

但我却没有丝毫想反抗的念头

一直逃避，一直逃避，一直逃避

我该怎么办？

Mum's kitchen

:)

Last time...

My blog is nice to read. Hahahaha! I'm bored,so I read back all the entries. I like the way I encouraged myself. It sounded like I have a very strong will that I wanna achieve something. I express every penny of my thought on my blog.

However,as time goes by,I've changed. I'm a totally different person now. I'm a coward,lazy and boring person now. Yes,I think so. Most of the time,I'll just accept whatever that comes my way. I'm so lazy to explain,so lazy to change,so lazy to deal with problem. I accept everything regardless it is right or wrong,I want or don't want. Because I'm sick of fighting for anything. Probably life has taught me to protect myself more. I'm building wall,just like everybody does. No longer think so highly of myself. Maybe in other people life,I'm not that important as I thought I was....

Yeah,I was once a fighter until everything around let me down.

They say fire starting in my heart,reaching a fever pitch and they bring me out of dark...

The scars of your love,they leave me breathless....

The lyrics remind me the life I used to have.... no more. :)

I miss you.

Are you still there when I get back?

pfft!

Wake up remembering thing

that I tried so hard to forget last night.

It seems like

tonnes of work waiting for me,

yet I'm so lazy and choose to ignore.

=\

CREATIVITY...

Inspiration!

Where are you?

ps : I like that picture. =D

Tell yourself today.

Depression, low self esteem, fear & insecurities are just some of the things that keep women from discovering just how amazing they truly are.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:14

You're amazing,just the way you are...

My Lord is good,all the time.

来人，呆去洗澡！

8月22日，晴
阿呆，不爱洗澡....
玩躲猫猫一会才肯乖乖就范
花了很多力气，最终还是成功了。
(^^)Y

Vain

Being honest is bad,sometimes.

Seriously,
the bathroom scale is always
the most honest instrument in the world
and CRUEL!
T________________T

Fats,I'm gonna burn you within this month!
Wait and See!
I'm truly very the over-oily these days.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Accupa

Green tea is still my favorite.
:D
It is a cold morning,again.

我想我失去了....

表达自己的能力

LOST

I don't think I'm ready to go back to Uni.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooo

I DON'T WANT!

无言

‎:小姐(惊吓，停顿两秒）。。不好意思，先生，要买甘蔗水吗？
:（白了他一眼）我是小姐。。
:不好意思

:先生，小姐，要买菊花茶吗？(不可能称呼我朋友先生吧？)
:她们叫我什么啊？
（小妹妹们落荒而逃）
:（哈哈大笑）叫你不要没事把头发剪到这么短了！

=_____________________________​_________= 天啊，世界怎么了？

How?

Ok,say what...

I'm going to KK soon.

I don't really worry about money.

But without money,life is "stressful"

because you tend to think alot.

Your shopping is restricted,

in fact everything is restricted.

Next week gonna be a super free week.

Coz my boss din arrange any job for me.

thus,I 失业 liao.

I wanna go take photos actually.

Go to beach or anywhere outside..

First I will think,hmmmmm

No people go with me.

Second,if got people wanna go with me,

I have to drive.

Thinking about last week,

my mum complained about my petrol fee.

Oops...

Pump my own petrol?

bo $$..

See the importance of $$ ?

Oh someone,please save me...

Get me out of here!!!

How nice if I have a friend,

who like photography,

willing to take turn to drive...

I wasn't saying my friends don't want to drive,

but they don't have cars.

I understand completely.

That's the problem.

haizzz...

I think EMO comes from boredom...

It seems like there is nothing I can do alone at home.

Sigh.. life~

Time slips...

Bye bye ah ying,

my gal...

=(

Sing Garden

Fish head bee hoon!

Very delicious.

^^b

Tupperware

Hui Sing,

sesat in Kuching for the first time.

sweat. ==|||

Mum bought me a new bottle pouch.

and a big box of tupperware products.

=D

It's August...

Ah buuuuu....

Tot four months will last like...

forever?

o.O

Ah ying's farewell~

Had fun today.

When is the next time?

3 years from now?

Hopefully...

Should I go tomorrow?

Dilemma.

Fish

Changing mode

Played too much.

Time to get a little bit serious...

Happy day!

Smile! :D

It wasn't my plan.

Forgetting hurts
But sometimes remembering is worse.

I miss you.

暖暖

发泄

我又哭了。。

有时候，你最在乎的人

往往是伤你最深的

因为你把心掏出来

真心诚意地想要帮助别人

换来的却却是别人的“无心伤害”

其实眼泪往往不会因为单件事情而流

而是某些事，某些人，说的某些话

打开了眼睛的水龙头

它就不受控制地流了

好多好多回忆，都回来了

它们像贴身傀儡

我又无处可逃

但愿眼泪流尽时

它们可以自动滚蛋

朋友

我不恨你们

我也可以很天真的相信

你们真的是在开玩笑

只恨你们的无心

你们的玩笑让我吃不消

我是好人

也是很笨的好人

但是看看十架上的耶酥

我知道天主希望我做个好人

勇敢的好人

就像他一样

对于那打击我的事

只能说

去他妈的脏东西！

Boy or Girl?

I can't wait to see you. :D

I love CA BO-s

EAT
LAUGH
LOVE! <3

Card making is addictive.

It's pretty, isn't it?

Lovely.

Into plastic bag...

Ready to be sent!

Once you get started,it is hard to quit.
Anyone have the same hobby? :)

12/7/11

I booked my tickets.

I went out today.

I talked to my buddies.

I had my Bolognese Spaghetti which I've been craving for.

I had my double cheese burgers.

I sung.

I laughed.

I went to church for legion meeting.

It seems like I've done alot to cheer myself up...

But something is missing.

If only I know what is it...

what,What,WHat,WHAt,WHAT...

Tell me what!!!!

I'm sick of asking why.

Because even myself cannot answer it.

I should go to bed earlier,today.

:)

Looking forward...

Nikita season 2

Piano

Hitting those keys

calm me....

When is the day I can play a song properly?

:)

多的是你不知道的事

Forgiving.

肚量大一点，才能装进更多的幸福。

There's nothing that cannot be forgiven,
as long as we have the sincerity.

戴佩妮立了很好的榜样
敬佩她

:)

生活是甜的，未来也是甜的。

Did I oversee something?

Talk to dad via the phone.
Suddenly I feel like crying.
When was the last time I talk to him in person?
When I busy chasing after something,
am I losing something?

Daddy~~~~~~~~~~

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