70.4kg

Phew~

Finally shake off the 2kg gained

during that one week holiday

It takes 2 weeks to lose 

the weight gained in 1 week

I know,it is unfair

but anyway,I'm gonna work extra hard

for my -5kg by 2013!

FIGHTING!

bed is my comfort

I said : "aiyo,why stress didn't find me?
like that you call friends meh?"
Cheh,as if I'd look for friends when I'm stressed
as if they understand
as if they can make me feel better
same goes to others
in this world,most of the time,
we're on our own
no one can truly understand how you feel
most importantly
THEY CAN'T MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER
you'd have to figure it out yourself
because in the end,
you're on your own
This is not sarcastic or being hopeless
but honestly,you have to pick up yourself
forgive and move on
no one can help you
no one can motivate you
unless you put in effort to try it yourself first!
Once you think that you're mature,
actually there is nothing much left to say
those can digest,digest la
those can forgive,forgive la
those can ignore,ignore la
those can avoid,avoid la
none of above works? Leave la
why hurt yourself and others wor?

Don't care too much
once it is too much,you lose everything
beyond everything
crush you,creep you deep inside
and it takes long time to heal and to believe again
prevent,avoid,I always try to slow down and look
it comes naturally
I don't even have to think about it
I refuse and won't love like how I loved last time
I don't live there anymore
I protect myself and will always try to love myself more

I think
I can't,won't and I don't deserve to
maybe one day,someone special will appear
and show me
I can,I would and I deserved
:)

for now,brush teeth and go to sleep
MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA

This place makes me old

天儿呀
见鬼了
我的眼袋
接受不到咯！！！！

/==\

忧郁中

pek chek

过着每天被人催功课，

照片，设计的日子

不知几时才可以解脱

我可以不要再逃避吗？

很烦啊！！！！

我要做时，往往是不顺利的

死鬼report，为什么你要这样对我？！？

你就不能体谅我下了多大的决心

才决定碰你吗？

peace

我是无知的和平主义者
不哭不闹不炫耀
对于黄色事件
还是持于平静的态度
政府，你可要为人民着想
别伤还无辜
平平静静，和和谐谐地和他们商量吧
人民，适可而止吧
大家尽好自己本分就好
重点是和平！
为和平祈祷~阿门

Music

Sometimes when I miss you,
I put those records on.

:)

Don't give up,SHS!

Pick it up and never say never

Morning sickness

Morning time is the most vulnerable and sensitive time

dahlah xda mood minggu ni

People have to come and irritate me

at that very moment.

I tried to control but my face betrayed me

Sigh

Friends forgive.

I have to FORGIVE!

Was thinking...

So,is it my problem that I'm angry?

FAT

I thank God,I have friends last time.
:P
I want to be slim and pretty so bad!!!
Still struggling...

中学朋友为何如此长久，
也许是因为她们陪我度过了人生最丑，最胖
最无知，最单纯，最吵死人，最简单
也最快乐的时光
我回不去了，只能往前一直走，一直走

我不配
:(

隔壁桌的她

读书狂？
三句离不开
“我要读书”
“我在读书”
“我要做功课”
“我在作功课”

也许，我永远都到不了那境界

Be healthy

Please don't fall sick.
Please don't
Just don't....
PLEASE~~~

:)

Migraine

Can someone please stop the pain?

/==\

Discomfort

Gahhhhhhhh..
HEADACHE!
:(

Besut

A day off...

back to school,6th day

I forgive but never forget.

Just kidding,I'll forget anyway...

XP

Tomorrow please RAIN!

in Jesus name I pray.Amen.

:P

back to school,5th day

WOW,what a big change to blogspot!! NICE!
:D
I'm so tired today...
Probably because weekend is here.
Tee hee...
And LOTSA works waiting for me next week
I mean ALOT!
Oh well,
let's see what can I do..

back to school,4th day

Officially broke!

No money,how to live?

I think I need to save money dy...

Hmmm... next semester will be better.

Just some funny discovery,

I like new thing

new hair,

new knowledge,

new lecturer,

new friend,

new thing,

new gadget,

Whatever is new to me catch my attention

Maybe because I get bored very easily

Old is better or new?

What do you think?

I'd think whatever that is not mine,is new and good.

HAHAHAHA!

Abdominal discomfort for several days dy.

Period,why you hurt me?

I don't think I'm stress but my head ache horribly

Heat,why you hurt me?

Sudden thought,

Am I very lousy?

Headache+menstrual pain+think too much = sleep

Sleep it thru,sleep it away...

sleep....

back to school,3rd day

First thing I felt in labor room is COLD

don't know is it the aircond or the scream of pain

4 babies,I witnessed

SO THE VERY CUTE LORRR!

But the screaming part really made me brrrrrrrr

goosebumps

And I kinda agree with adoption now.

HAHAHAHAHA!

:P

Seeing the delivery makes me feel so proud of my ah bu

Mum is so noble!!!!

Ah Bu,don't worry

I'll protect you!

I miss my mum

PCOS

Hmmmmmmmmm

PCOS

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

PCOS

hair loss,irregular period,facial hair

My weakness and low esteem source last time

my sister tried to explain to me last time

But I didn't pay much attention

Studying about it now

need to be careful

you know,being asked

why you have mustache?

why you look like a guy?

bla bla bla

at the age of 17 or 18

Yeah,I used to hate myself.

and cried in toilet.

:b

Back to school,2nd day

Today as usual 8am-10am class

the rest semua class canceled.

Oh well,"unfortunately"

We have to stay because class replacement

I think 30-40 years old or above UNMARRIED lecturer/s(female)

seriously more fierce and unreasonable

Freaky freaky...

Somemore, unmarried nurses are weird...

Oh no,if I decided not to marry in future,

would I be like them?

OHNOOOOO~~~

Today,early in the morning,

I was blur blur,semi conscious(just wake up mah)

took my newly bought toothpaste(in a box)

suddenly,the toothpaste dropped out from the box

the sharp sharp end hit my foot and ta da!

Bleeding and now bruise...

only people like me will injured in this "creative" way

Urgh,pardon me...

==

although just a small hole,

Cacat dy,every move I make,

I feel pain...

><|||

Now,in the library,

after some time...

Phew,night study in cold air...

*LIKE*

Clinical posting...

Labor room tomorrow...

Hmmmmm

Witness opening vagina,newborn,suffering mother

pain and love?

Life is amazing...

小小潜水家

别人多富有，漂亮，有地位

都与你无关

交朋友要看对方愿意拿多少

与你分享

那是交友的基本

也是待人处事的诚意

朋友是真心想对你好的人

谢谢你，我的朋友

你，应该是有看我的部落格的吧

嘻嘻

Back to school,first day.

I can't judge you.

But I pray that you'd be able to

wake up next time for church.

:)

Still,3 questions

Can you do the job?(ability)

Will you do the job(willingness)

Can you cooperate with others?(team work)

-quoted Dr Lim-

I can study

I will study

and my friends help me.

I can do it!

I go to church not because I'm holy

I love God so much or whatsoever nonsense

But because God loves me.

So,Thank You,Lord for loving me.

Today gospel

Blessed are those who didn't see Me but believe.

Make me the blessed one,Lord.

I believe.

Be patient

When you started to work,

you feel like everything is against you.

Your tools and machine like pen, stapler,printer,broadband,computer etc etc

JUST FREAKING NOT COOPERATIVE!

I'm sweating like hell now.

Gosh...

Anyway,be patient.

They need some time,

just as I do.

==

Sometimes,love just ain't enough

世上不爱的理由有很多：忙、累、为你好....等等，而爱的表现只有一个：

就想和你在一起

Back

Back.

It seems like everything starts from zero.

No notes,no exam(thank God),no assignment,no feeling...

But I know,they are coming

and I start to feel scared.

I've left my pendrive back in Kuching.

How could I??

All my documents are inside.

GOSH..

I'm so terrible.

Cannot,I must save myself.

MUST!!!

I MUST BE STRONG!!

Bye,my love

When I lost something

Don't think about it

and I won't feel pain

I admit I'm careless.

And I never stop paying for my carelessness.

Sushi Bonanza

Good thing about being home is that...
You can eat whatever you want
and laugh whatever you like
Stomachache because laugh too hard or eat too much?
#Great supper!

我的心，碎了

都救不到料，拍张照留念吧

我还有两年半的贷款没有还清叻

*心痛*

Everybody is a genius.

But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree,

it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.

Bee-sy

At first,I thought of finishing assignment quickly,so that can go happy hour with my friends. In the end,all busy with assignment. I thought I'm the only one who haven't finished my homework. I thought I'm always the one last minute? == Others are busier than me now. This is weird...

Do you miss me?

Miss my stupid dai at home

I can't go but you don't want to go

If your heart is there,your orang will be there.

How funny that people will try to get a car,no matter what

to go makan

But if go to church,

assignment la,

study la,

no car la,

all sort of excuses

Well,I can always accept "don't feel like going"

because some people just don't like it

Why be the bad guy and force them?

I can only say...

some people go to church based on obligation

which is kinda sad

But they are they,I can't change people

as long as they are happy...

I used to be very kepoh and keep asking people to go to church

now,friends,I can only pray for you

Assignments pile up!

URGH...

and that stupid gastritis!

WHAT DO YOU WANT?

T.T

Heart vs Mind

Honestly, I'm not sure if I should keep holding on or let go. It is stupid to hold on to something that keeps hurting you, but it is also stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted.

I don't leave when I feel hurt. I leave when I've been hurt ENOUGH. My heart hurts because it is kind and soft. But when my brain defeat my heart, nothing can change my mind. I'm cruel this way. Maybe my ego works that way. :)

I'm done with you.

快点读书，作功课！

我们来玩一个游戏

没读书的就是猪！

哈哈

为什么你下雨？

我想去图书馆叻

又下雨又暗又一个人

唉，还是算了。。。

不活在过去

我一直以为是我的问题

直到今天朋友点醒了我

没有人可以是一辈子的好朋友

让我领悟到

你喜不喜欢我，

真的不在我控制范围内，

所以我决定了，

不再为你伤无谓的心

坚持着落空的承诺

还有感谢那地域上的距离

减少了摩擦

增加了思念

献给分隔世界各地的姐妹们

想念你们了