i love FRIDAY!!

being sporty is bad.. hahaha.. why i say so? as i accumulate too much of lactic acid in my muscle, i end up ache here ache there,here pain there pain now. oh,whatever it is. i still love sport or maybe not sport la. probably just jog or hop around..etc! hahaha.. just couldn't sit still.

worried for the whole morning because there was this.. math 2 quiz. i admitted that i was quite nervous cause i wasn't well prepared and sorry i didn't complete all my exercises before i sit for the test. that's kinda irresponsible and i promise i'll improve. =) anyway,the test went smoothly because me and my neighbour actually helped one another(help kononnya) hahahhaa..

then we're supposed to have our vad agm rehearsal this afternoon but due to some reasons,pengetua chased all of us home and cancel/delay all the upcoming activities. don't know why and don't bother =)

went for badminton this afternoon. felt kinda lazy but still drag myself there,since i promise my friends mah. glad to see nana again after a few months? she becomes so fair!!! she created a great contrast with yee ying,seriously!! oops,sorry yy! hahahaha.. had a good match with suk ling. then we went to you liang for abc. =) simply love the feeling, which everyone get together like a bunch of good friends and chit-chatting. treasure the friendship,people =)

i love FRIDAY because tomorrow no school!! hahahahaha..

跳跳着~

我和我的为什么

为什么天空是蓝的？
为什么现在没有恐龙？
为什么我要上学？
为什么有这么多的功课？
为什么玩耍的时间过得特别快？
为什么这个，为什么那个？
为什么，为什么？
还记得小时候，很喜欢问为什么。可是大人的回应不是不知道，就是等你长大后就会知道。他们不都是长大后了吗？也许有些事情是长大后也不一定会知道的吧？！ 神秘的为什么。
可是想想，‘为什么’只是让你发现已经存在的事实而‘为什么不’才是把你的潜力发挥到极致的。毕竟很多事情都有无限的可能。只要你有‘为什么不’的信念。

'why' makes you discover something but 'why not' makes you create new thing
-Esther- agree? =)

我不忙

忙
有人告诉我
这个字，素心旁立了个‘亡’字
顾名思义就是心死了。
的确常常忙碌的人
心就很像死了。
他们忽略了
身边的人，风景，领悟。。。
他们每天忙着
却不知道为何，为谁在忙着。
既然留不住时间
为何不和它同步前进
别走得太慢
落在后头
更不要走得太快
错过风景

我是否第一步走得太快
超越时空
第二步又走得太慢
反而落在时代的后头？
我也不清楚
只知道我就像小宝宝学走路般
跌跌撞撞
但我知道总有一天
我会找到属于自己的步伐
走出属于自己的道路
以前走过的路
记忆犹新
毕竟成长的脚步，
每一步都很踏实，贴切。

名句领悟：
那些常常说自己很忙的，往往是时间最多的。
-慧珊-

随心所欲

自由自在的感觉真好，爱做什么，就做什么。看来把书包留在车上是对的。我今天after school还没碰到书。在家当了一整天的阿呆，一个‘很我’ 的一天，无忧无虑~~ 好开心哦！上了中六，这样浪费时间是何等的奢侈啊！哈哈哈哈。。人嘛，最重要是开心。我不管了，只想当个快乐人。该读书时，读书；该玩时，尽情玩！ 以前的我复活了！！

偶尔放假，放松，放肆一下也不错。哈哈哈。。不过这样一直颓废的生活，我想只有我妹妹可以忍受吧？我一定办不到。（还不忘了亏一亏我妹）

突然好想去旅行，一个人和我的背包。。
想去看看外面的世界，是不是想象中那么那么大？

quote of the day :

monster makes up hero

-gabriel chan-

question and answer

你会接受和你性格相似的人吗？ do you accept or reject someone who are similar to you?

到今天为止，我还没有遇见酱的人。我会觉得很奇怪咯。我对自己的看法是，就不是处于很舒服的状况，就有种不自在的感觉。我对自己有太多的要求和不满意了。所以，遇见一个和自己相似的人，应该会很恐怖吧？很像他可以看穿我的心事，然后逼我接受我心里不想触到的那一块。糊涂和朦胧是祝福。哈哈。。我相信异性相吸。性格的性。我相信人应该找一个和自己相配的人，英文叫complement。就像我喜欢说教，就得找个爱聆听的朋友。如果两个很吵的人凑在一起，想必会吵架吧？我不知道，也许我遇过，也被我拒绝了吧。就觉得我应该会拒绝和我相同或相似的人呗。毕竟我觉得一个人应该是独一无二的，我希望我是。xD

so far,i haven't not met someone like that. i would feel very awful. well,i always feel kinda awkward and uncomfortable with myself. in life,i have too much unsatisfactory about myself. so,if i'd to meet someone like that,it's kinda horrible lo. it's like he/she can visualize whatever i think and force me to accept who i truly am. ignorance is a bliss. lol. i always believe that different characteristics attract. it's good to find someone who are complement to you instead of similar. imagine there are two 'cha si lang' sang gather together,sure quarrel one. it just doesn't work. muahahhaa.. i don't know,i think i had met ones probably and i rejected. i think i'd reject those who are very similar to me lo. everyone is unique and i wish i'm the only one.

what do you think?

"don't you feel sinful" quoted.

Ginger breadman bakery!
nice place.
despite my annoying sister
who kept saying
"eiyeerrr,don't you feel sinful?"
hahahahahha..
ice-blended oreo
oh my~
high sugar drink makes me happy!

idle

procrastination.
what an unproductive day.
even my computer is slow.. =\

doesn't mean that i give up

i don't resit the test doesn't mean that i gave up. i think it's not the right time. i know my english level and i know i can't handle too much pressure at once.. i accepted it and i promise i'll brush up my english. there are so many uncertain things in my life,but if you ask me whether i'll regret or not? i would say no,because i don't wish to push myself into studying just because of the exam. i don't want it to become my burden and lost my passion in learning english. band 4 is more than enough for me now. i'm happy and contented. if i don't,i'll consider to resit next year. =) i don't know,i felt kinda relieved and happy when i made up my mind yesterday.

i'm not a bright student but i'll do everything step by step and go wherever my Lord lead me.

for those who are taking the test end of the year,all the best and i'll pray for you guys! do your best and God'll do the rest. add oil!!!

no sorrow is greater than despair

my confidence is crushed after what had happened recently. i'm very disheartened and disappointed. it was rather dark memont and it can really get to you if you're not careful.

i was given a chance to redo my muet. but,i think there's no point to do so since i was just trying to 赌一口气. if you were me,what would you do?

i can't accept the fact that i'm just a average,normal student. but the reality is staring me in face. i've failed. failed to reach the high target that i've set for myself. and i'm extremely upset. i started to doubt about myself. i realised that the more i care about my result,i can't perform well. i think of failure and all sort of difficulties before i tried. those unhappy experience haunted me.

think of this : people tend to shut themselves in a cramped space. over time,their perspective becomes narrow. a little setback will seem like a big disappointment to them. one should walk out of that cramped little space. there's no point staying on if you've grown weary. slowly,you'll become a person with no passion for what you're doing.

let your inclinations guide you,don't set a too high goal for yourself,you'll be happier that way. all is not lost,there's always chance. i won't give up!

God says : "my grace is all you need,for my power is the greatest when you are weak." i am most happy,then to be proud of myy weaknesses, in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me. i'm content with weaknesses,insults,hardships,persecutions and difficulties for Christ's sake. for when i am weak,then i am strong.
-2 corinthians 9,10-

Amen!

tiring saturday.

being extremely busy is good,avoid thinking too much.. and i'm off to bed now!

不想长大的星级五

突然有种不想长大的感觉。总觉得大人的世界好复杂哦。像我现在酱没大没小，我是说不大不小..唉~该这么说呢？
不想当个小孩，所以试着从大人们中找寻自认适合的外套披上。可是，不是那里太窄，就是那里不舒服..我的孩子啊，衣服穿在自己身上，生活是要自己慢慢体验的。世界上没有一个人是和自己百分百相似的。也就是说除了自己的外套，没有一件是最适合自己的了。是的，我们可以和别人同穿一件，可是感觉就是不一样，少了一点归属感。
你的生活，你主宰，你做到了吗？我还在努力。过些年，也许我会比较清楚我想要得是什么吧？
我承认我不是极端的人，我的世界没有百分百的白或黑，我只是在灰色地带游荡，感觉平衡的小瓜。船到桥头自然直，别问我如果的事因为我相信事情发生时，在我心里的神会告诉我该怎么做。前阵子，读了一本书，里头提到的哲学满可爱的，值得参考：

把自己当别人
把别人当自己
让别人当别人
让自己当自己

不是绕口令哦！ 以我的理解是：
1。对自己严苛得来，又要懂得适时的包容，接受自己的缺点，勿把得失看得太重。
2。对待身边的人应该如对待自己一样，这样世界不是更美好吗？
3。尊重个人有个人的想法，不要侵犯别人的内心世界。这样自然可以得到别人的尊重。
4。忠于自己，只要问心无愧。千万别为了讨好身边的人而迷失了自己。能够讨好每个人的，大概只有小丑吧？

青春期的小孩，爱胡思乱想，就是偶！我不想长大！！！ 哈哈哈哈~ 心智上我希望我自己是成熟的。但愿是。。。

forgetful thursday

i forgot to attend astronomy club AGM this afternoon. -.-||| holding a post of vice president,i truly felt ashamed of that.. sorry ya! anyway,hope everything goes well without me. it was rather easy to be a club vice president,all you need to do is attend every meetings and you got the marks. especially those inert club like my club ;) hahhaa..

let's talk about some current issues. as you all know,MJ passed away week ago. i actually don't have any special feeling toward this news. just feel kinda sorry and sad that a great singer had left us suddenly. there's absolutely a concrete reason why MJ's well known as the king of pop. just look at his dancing style,great voice(especially when he sang that song.. "you're not alone,i'm here with you...") undeniable,many people had actually imiatated his performance like his dancing etc. i think God has His own reason in calling MJ back at that moment. think about this,if he didn't die,he's going to carry out 50 concerts around the whole world. does his health allow him to cope with this heavy work load? can he still perform as great as before? will people keep on hitting and critising him after those performance? can he take those critism openly and live for himself? hmmm,something to ponder. well,his body has dead but not his spirit,music,passion in dancing... he's considered a very successful man in his career and he did bring lotsa entertainment and love to people around us. MJ,may you rest in peace.

other than that,i heard that government is going to change english back to bahasa malaysia in teaching science and maths. it was rather a disappointing decision for me lo. why give up? they should improve the english level instead of tolerant. i understand that one should know their national language(BM) well. there are many other subjects taught in bm dy le. you can make bm as a compulsory subject but why not english? when students reach form 6,science and maths will be taught in english again? WHAT? how do you expect student to do well in their public exam? all those scientific terms,no kidding man. if we don't learn since early stage,students will be in deep trouble. hope malaysia government can be more considerate and think twice before they take any action.
p/s all those textbooks that gov decided to give out free before,how? all throw away and get new books? why waste money like that? i think malaysia just need to be more persistent lo.. there's always difficulties in starting point. find solution,not excuses!!! if bm in teaching science and maths doesn't work,are they going to change back to english again?? hmmmm.. good luck,juniors.

sigh,talk so much. tired liao. bye

wawa~ wednesday.

pissed off! how can those people took me for granted!!! urghh.. control control.. rashes bump out when i got angry. or is it because i didn't take bath? i did le.. hehee xD well,why punish myself since other people did wrong? so,forgive and don't forget.. i spend money for lesson(ALWAYS.. can't help,i stupid) lol. thou not my money,also sim tiah. =(

don't know since when i enjoy being alone. i went for a walk just now. simply love the feeling. no distraction,everything is so peaceful and it seemed like all my worries is carried away by the tender wind. nice.. it's good to slow down. that 10 minutes was the most perfect moment for the day. =)

无聊的星级二

今天早上下了说大不大，说小不小的雨。下雨天嘛，当然是心不甘情不愿的起床，懒懒散散得去学校啦！ 发现这样的早晨也不错。突然想起王立宏的一首歌-if you listen to the rhythm of failing rain,那是春雨领洗过的太阳。真的，下过雨的天空很美，阳光也很warm，不会像平时那么晒死人不偿命。

今天的课，和平常一样咯。只是我上了4节的数学，只作了4题练习。可想而知，我的数学是多么的。。你说呢？ 哈哈。。不过，别人也差不多，那也许是对我小小的欣慰吧！哈。。

下午来个小偷懒，在家睡了两个小时，没有去图书馆报到。哈哈。。爽啊！游手好闲了一个下午。晚上，算是有念到书了，organic chemistry，至少比physical和organic好念多了。那两本不是人念的（相信我）。哈哈哈。。为什么会念organic？当然又是因为那'我必须参与，又未必享受的事'咯。还是在下午的extra class.只能说-哀怨阿~不过，我还好。明天是朋友生日，又碰巧是考试期，真可怜。我会帮你庆祝的，sushi,别伤心。很多人耗了一辈子，也没这个荣幸。

啊！！新买的手表没电了！！像屎一样，气死我了！ 中看不中用的东西！！！

黑色星期一

4个字来形容我现在的心情-力不从心！ 总觉得礼拜一过得很快，但又是最难熬的。很像一切从零开始那种感觉。我不知道该怎么看待我现在的情况，只能说比上不足，比下有余。以我的角度来说是夹在中间，一事无成。真的，我可以很明显的察觉到那自卑感慢慢的侵略。只是天生爱面子的我，就是不服输。一个人可以用高傲的外表示人，可是夜深人静时，还是掩饰不了心中的空虚。我不忧郁，可是就是有点无奈。我知道凡事都要一步一步来，不该怀疑。可是。。可是。。。唉~总之就是烦啦！我的信心从我手中流走，现在我要亲手把你争取回来。哪里跌倒，就该哪里爬起来！唯一愿望--不要放弃，就有奇迹。加油！ =）

=X

no school!! Wahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahaahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahaha

我的心情日记

唉~ （原来我真得很爱叹气，哈哈）
困扰了吗？ 不，只是爱发牢骚。。
现在的我除了读书，还是得读书。
我只能说考试，那是我必须参与，但又未必享受事。
我要收身养性。。已经在慢慢调整心情了，情况很乐观。
在这二十个星期内，如果看见我，请帮帮忙提醒我：我必须念书！ 哈哈哈。。
be persistent,people! daring to pursue your dream is the very first step to success =)