ah mi,you love me or not?

had a dream.

not really a nightmare,

but it bring back memories.

it is exactly what i wish mum would do for me.

and it only materialize in my dream.

how provoking.

ever since i was small

i wished mum could present in my prize giving day

even if it means once.

but never.

i remember my sister got pelajar cemerlang for her form 3

mum was so happy and attended hers.

i was so so so jealous that time,

that i even cried on this little matter.

throughout the years,

i've been trying very hard to score

to get the best result

and hope that mum would be proud of me

and attend my prize giving day.

but the hardest i try

the hardest i fell

sick of it

inferiority comes in that time

very very much

i think up till now

i will still think that i'm useless

shoot,i cried again.

i think she did ask

whether i want her to attend or not.

and i said no?

did i?

all i want is mum sitting down there

smiling at me and clap for me.

as simple as that.

but now,

i don't know whether i still have the chance or.

anyway,

i gonna try my best,

no matter what.

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,but how ah?

==

planning planning...

action action...

suggestion?

i think my parents dote on me

that is what i always believe

and doubt...

=P

i wanna tapao love and care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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