Thursday, September 29, 2011

sweet daoo....

Ok,I know I said I wanted to sleep
but senior popped out from nowhere.
and handed me a bowl of green bean soup...
Awwww... how sweet.
However,I sudah gosok gigi.
ps before this,I just had a bowl of red bean dumpling soya bean.
Would I get diabetes?
Aiya,nevermind la...
got people sayang,gosok 100 kali pun ok.
Won't get diabetes I suppose.
But need to jog more lo.
Sheez,I'm fat...
LOLx

Thank you,someone...
I love my CG leaders,
they are awesome people.

Oh Thursday..

Time flies.
3 weeks gone.
Next week masuk wad again
Lotsa preparation
Lotsa revision to do
So little time..
=\

I felt that you are not right tonight,
but I didn't say it.
Hopefully I'm wrong...
:)

Choir was ok.
Mary went to choir!
She is my big sister...
A person I can so manja to.
HAHAHAAAA~~
Everyone so semangat.
Sing for God!
I like!

I want to take pictures...
Playing badminton tomorrow.
Zzzz...

Oh gosh,11pm dy.
I haven't done my homework.
whatever,sleep first!
Good night.

ps : I miss my family and my friends.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I'm afraid,for this moment.

I found that I always have a hard time
switching myself back to reality
after all the ups and downs.

Forgot how to stay calm...
Emo never really leaves me
Stress never really leaves me
They are essential to push me go forward
At the same time,
I'm scared...

To someone,I have a gift.
Which I've been keeping since May.
It was,it is,it will be inside my bag,
Forgive me,I don't have the courage to give.
I wished I didn't buy it initially.

The word stuck in my throat never voice out,
The msg stuck in my draft box never sent out,
I don't know how we end up here.
But trust me,I'm having a hard time
coping with life without talking to you.
Oh well,life...
Friends come and go,
I understand.

Things will get better.
One day,I'll be good enough
to face this world without fear!
I promise myself,
I'll stay strong...

PS: how can she find me with just one word EMO. Do I really look sad? ==

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I want to study!

Ok,I've been running away from revision.
Exam is near.
9th of October.
Please........
Make me read the notes.
*dead*

How nice if I can fool around like nobody business...
=X

Incomplete love.


"Don't hold on anything too tight,but you have to hold it tight enough so that it doesn't drift away"

Stay close together,and nothing shall separate us.
I'll hold on for a moment,but you can't expect me to wait forever.
We have to move on... both of us.
And we all know nothing lasts forever...

Monday, September 26, 2011

Team Medical Dragon

is AWESOME!

'Coz you're amazing

Early in the morning,
If I have the chance,
I'd love to listen to Bruno Mars'
Just The Way You Are.
Like what I'm listening now.

Today is a brand new day.
With Your blessing and grace,
I'm gonna live life to the fullest.
Amen!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Just a little reflection.

You know,I can actually count myself as the lucky one. Despite being placed in Kelantan,I have friends from all around the world to cheer for me. Once I have a little of uncertain or insecurity,there is always someone who cares. Maybe a long lost friend,or a stranger who I have just known for a few minutes. People around never failed to touch my life and uplift me when thing doesn't turn out to be that good. Previously,I used to think I'm forced to be optimistic because that is the only thing I can do in this terrible place or when something bad happened. I'm always deceiving myself... However,I realized being optimistic is actually a gift from God. To be gratitude makes me notice that there are still people who loves me. Most importantly,Jesus loves me. I know this better now.

No news is good news.

Got a shocking news from Facebook today.
Until now,I still feel....blank.
But I really do sympathy him and his family.
Maybe he had been thru alot,
too much of pain and pressure.
And he is free from all these now.
I'm not encouraging people to commit suicide.
Suicide is never the way to solve problem.
However,as we read in the paper,
he is sick... so what can you say?

Is committing suicide really a sin?
Straight away go to hell?
no exception?
I don't know how to pray for him,
I don't know where will him be after this.
Heaven? Hell?
Am I thinking too much?
Is this part of God's plan?
Many thoughts in my mind,know?

Oh,I just hope he rest in peace.
And bless his family,dear Lord.
They have been thru alot...
Have mercy..

Now,I really very scared to hear from someone.
Perhaps no news is good news.
Everyone healthy,good and safe.
The least I asked for....

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Hurray!!!!!!!!

First step accomplished.
Thought I won't be able to finish the jog/walk.
Phew~
But I feel better after exercise.
Nice nice feeling!
I eventually feel LIGHTER.
LOLx

Should do more next time!
Tomorrow.
I know my roomates will motivate me,
especially that crazy girl.
Energetic betul dia.
==

I'm back,cattails!!
I'm back,blue sky!!!!
I'm back,KELANTAN!!!!!

I'm alive!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL

Commitment.

Pray,
Think,
Speak,
Act,
Do homework,
Treat people,
Laugh,
Cry,
Live my life.

Thou it hurts sometimes,
do it whole-heartedly.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Emptiness..

I was very busy these two weeks.
But I don't know what did I do...
My heart is so confused.

However,
I don't feel emo.

Just very empty..
And the time is slow as in
I've been here for two weeks
feel like already two months
On the other side,I feel that the time is fast
because it seems like many things undone...

That's why I said,
I'm confused...
Hmmmmmmmmm

*hugging OnNom and ponder*

Thursday, September 22, 2011

LIKE!


AHHHHH!
ON NOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*beams like him*
Thank you,Athena Chai!!!
Omg,I'm so excited when I received this...in Kelantan.
/=.=\
I gonna hug this and sleep!
GYAaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
=DDDD

Roomate chia me makan babi.
=X
It is indeed a happy day!
I'm a lucky girl!!!
xD

1am

I don't feel like doing homework.
=X

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Action speaks louder than word

My sister is awesome,indeed!
Throughout the years,
many people have told me,
"I'll be there for you when you need me."
But they didn't prove it.
They didn't show it...
Maybe they did but I just couldn't feel it.

I'm touched,this time....
thou little thing.
:D

No doubt,my sister did it.

Zzz

Ouch,Hepatitis B vaccination.
Arm-sore...

AA,why you treat me so?
There are absolutely many things that are beyond my control.
I pray for the best,that's all I can do and learning to do.
Hopefully I can get it. :)
pretty pretty please!

I'm so tired,man.
Half day gone...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Heavy...

Even the sky cried when it is too heavy...

Monday, September 19, 2011

Friends who care

Love you all very much...
Thank You,daddy Lord.
:)

大学生涯

进大学的最大愿望
就是
赶快毕业!

Missing home...

I missed dad and mum,
way too much....
:')

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Love is an ability.

An ability to show someone how much we care about them.
I won't,
No,I don't want somebody else.
I just want you to be there.
Prove to me you'd be there for me,
when I need you.
I wish you were here.
But,you ain't...

:(

IMY



..........
:)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011



Doesn't sound right reading this,
but I somehow touched by this letter.
It is a girl,student nurse wrote to another staff nurse before her death.

The last part, it says :

If only we could be honest, both admit of our fears, hold one another. If you really care, would you lose so much of your valuable professionalism if you even cried with me? Just person to person? Then it might not be so hard to die-in a hospital-with friends close by.

Slowly,
We are trained to be robots,
to be efficient,confident and stuff.
Maybe after long period of time,
we'll see death as a routine.
When sense of insecurity approaches,
will we still remember standing up there,
telling everyone,studying nursing because we wanna help people?

Never forget why am I here.
To care and love...
Only then my effort is worth it.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

sick

I haciu and water come out from my nose.
=,= Flu,apa macam lu datang kacau?
Sigh...
I do sigh alot recently.
not that I want...
Immunity is so low while my emotion is so teruk.
I know they are somehow connected.
But how am I suppose to make myself happy?

Transition...
I need some time...

Monday, September 12, 2011

BIG SIGH

I know exactly how and what I feel now
Depression is approaching...
Sigh....
Why torture me?
Pek cheknye~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Saturday, September 10, 2011

My current place



Basically like this...

Sunday, September 4, 2011

SUNDAY!

Now you know how my bathroom look like?
:]

Friday, September 2, 2011

女生长得可以不美,但一定要有口德

认识我的人,都知道我嘴特别贱。所以这篇文章吸引了我

有口德的女孩子总会被人发现她的美好,要学会:
急事,慢慢的说;
大事,清楚的说;
小事,幽默的说;
没把握的事,谨慎的说;
没发生的事,不要胡说;
做不到的事,别乱说;
伤害人的事,不能说;
讨厌的事,对事不对人的说;
开心的事,看场合说;
伤心的事,不要见人就说;
别人的事,小心的说;
自己的事,听听自己的心怎么说;
现在的事,做了再说;
未来的事,未来再说;
知人不必言尽,留三分余地与人,留些口德与己。
责人不必苛尽,留三分余地与人,留些肚量与己。
才能不必傲尽,留三分余地与人,留些内涵与己。
锋芒不必露尽,留三分余地与人,留些深敛与己。
有功不必邀尽,留三分余地与人,留些谦让与己。

修炼中....