Sienz

Stressed out for my single room next year.
Alah... What for?

Sabar sabar!

CANNOT,I'm so the very stressful!

URGH~!

Frustration

The most frequent question recently,

WHEN?

Everything when when when?

OMG,I'm so sick of it la!

Technology thingy

CF T-shirt promo video is awesome!

I believe she can make my creativity into reality.

:)

Deep in my heart,

still want to be a doctor.

Aikss.. why so stubborn?

Scribbles.

When I closed my eyes

I forgot the reason why I hate you

Remembered the gentleness

Why you let go of my hand

I tried to understand life is full of uncertainties

People comes and goes

I'm searching for happiness in dark

Waiting for that meteor to light up my sky

Why must we learn

after every hurtful goodbyes

Why must we regret

after seeing each other cried

Who am I

to you

I want to listen

what would you answer

The joy of serving...

When I shared umbrella with a friend today,

I thought of this..

Stop waiting for the right person to come into your life,

be the right person to walk into someone's life.

Perhaps I'm not that useless,

I'm not dumped by anybody,

I'm not abandoned by anybody.

I just need to walk out from my misfortune,

help others and be happy.

:)

Just wanna say...

I'm sorry...

Crap

Great,the migraine is here.

Urgh,my head...

Homesick

I miss mummy and I wish I can go home.

:(

I don't know how.

I'm so limited.

I don't know how to teach,

don't know how to lead,

don't know how to make them better.

All I can do is be with them.

I'm indeed so limited.

I know everything but good at nothing.

Haizz...

I feel so sorry for them.

hugging a friend.

She gently place her ear on mine.

Although I don't know what happened,

I hope she heard what my heart whispered,

Be strong,girl.

Sometimes,a hug can express so much.

At the same time,energy is transferred..

When I'm weak,you raised me up.

When I cried,you encouraged and wiped my tear.

When you need me,I'll be there.

Anytime,anywhere..

The least I can do...

And thing like this doesn't need thank you.

:)

Hope you feel better now,my friend.

Someone has reminded me

I get jealous easily.

==

Now,I know why I'm not happy.

This kinda people...

This is so annoying,sickening and STUPID!

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DO IT,

DON'T PROMISE ME BEFORE THIS,

I CAN DO IT MYSELF.

ONCE YOU PROMISED IT,

AND I'VE GIVEN YOU THE THING,

I WON'T TAKE IT BACK.

DO IT!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRR!

*CHOP CHOP CHOP*

Daring to be different.

When I stand up and take the challenge,

then I realized there are many people supporting me.

Everywhere I go,there are always friends asking how are you?

and jia you is everywhere...anytime I walk around the campus.

Their smile and caring have calmed and gave me strength each day.

That is the time to know more friends,

That is the time to know who are your friends.

Those who are there will always support you.

Not forgetting nobody can beat my family,

especially your parents.

I talked more to my dad and mum recently.

Probably because of the car,

probably because of facebook...

I'm just a little bit guilty I have not much time for them.

The way they care is the best heaven gift from God.

Not asking for anything but for the sake of own daughter's happiness.

Family = Father and mother I love you.

Family means nobody can be left behind.

I miss them...alot!

People around constantly remind me,

to be gratitude

and may all the glory to God.

Indeed,I try to see God thru each warmth I received..

Sometimes,things might looked bad,

but everytime it turned out to the best.

God always has a plan for me.

And I believe it is the best one.

Pray that I have faith and faith and somemore faith

to believe this even when I'm down to the valley..

Yes or no?

Some people said :

When you feel like giving up,

remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

When the reason is no longer there,

can I give up???????

Sound pollution

What are they doing?

The mosque has a distance from the campus,

yet so loud the speakers.

So annoying meh...

I can't study~~~

T.T

我想我真的难过了

我想我真的难过了

忘了上一次带着泪痕睡觉是几时

可是，感觉是一样的

心很痛

去刷牙的时候，看着镜子里的自己

好丑

哭过就好了

心痛对我予取予求

只是暂时的

会过去的

那是难过的声音

那是心碎的声音

在静静的夜里如此清晰

真实的我，

那会难过的我

内心的我

谢谢你让开朗的我见到你

要擦去眼泪

扬起头不哭泣

从心出发！

软弱的我呀，要加油哦！

:)

自慰（自我安慰）

老师没教

但

要学会的三句话

:)

The worst pain is when I have to smile just to keep the tears from falling, and sleep just to forget how it hurts.

Why,she famous kah?

Yeah,I'm not famous.

Neither did I want/claim to be.

But honestly,those words stung.

I don't know why.

I still like the way my secondary school friends be happy for me.

It is like very very happy and you don't really have to be worried so much

'coz you know they are there no matter happy or not.

The people here are...cold I'd say.

Oh well,we're all busy most probably.

Environment stops us from caring.

What else can I say?

Play 一半 by 叮当

Exactly how I feel now.

Lack of someone to share my joy,the joy is halved.

Not only burden,sometimes happiness also need to be shared.

Lord,teach me to be humble.

And not to think too much...

PS : officially Chinese Cultural Night(CCN) president,I am...

BIG event wow! Excited but a little bit of worry. Unavoidable. Do my best,God do the rest.

Mum gonna be so proud. Tee-hee..

PS2:Dad buying me a car. I'm so excited and can't wait to see him and the car.

Wakakakakakakaka! XDDD

NEVERMIND IF I'M NOT FAMOUS,I'M HAPPY FOR WHO I AM AND WHAT I HAVE.

ALL THE GLORY TO GOD,ALONE AND FOREVER!

AMEN.

Listen to me...

:(

Awesome day.

Being alone doesn't bother me that much today.

In fact,I feel ok when I'm alone today.

Nothing is happier than people remembering what they promised and fulfil it.

I love you,dad!

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy!

Well,sometimes people cheer me up with little sweet thing they've done.

I'm thankful for that.

:)

Finally,you're here.

Menstrual pain!!!!

:(

梦太美，回忆太心碎

去了我们一起走过的地方

景物依旧，人事全非

那个地方很美，有很多回忆

可是不适于逗留，因为回忆太心碎了

没有兑现的承诺太承重了

只要不想起你说过的话，我就不会难过

没有遇见你就好了，

也许我就不会在脆弱的时候，

想念你

Dear Lord,

Why is it so hard?

Holy Spirit,empower me,

give me strength and courage...

I place my trust fully in You,Lord.

If God bring you to it,

He will bring you through it.

I think I saw you..

Wake up and back to reality.

The inner me,long to meet you in another dream.

PEST!

Some people are like ants.

They are hardworking but moving other people's food.

Tia guna!

A phone call...

Ah mi said don't too stress.

Since I've decided to be a good girl,

I will try not to be stressed,

by doing preparation earlier,

rather than last minute task.

I've had enough!

Lord,check me when I'm procrastinating.

Amen!

I want to go home too!

People are weird.

No,I'm weird...

I didn't seem to enjoy thing that much recently.

Why?

And little thing get on my nerve easily.

Urgh,what's up mood swing!

They are going home...

I want too...

If happiness is a choice,can I be happy?

Friendship

This is so childish but it is so true.

Regardless how old you are,you'll still long for a good friend.

Someone you can count on...

I thought I can find one here,

However,this is how friend from university disappointed me.

Afterall,I'll only be here for 4 years.

I mean 3 more years.

Neither I'll stay any longer.

Nor I want to...

Treat your good friend nicely,

because they stay.

Accept and forgive your used-to-be-good-friend,

for once,they had warmed your hands with theirs.

Let it be God's will.

Stop hatred,plant love...

:)

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy.

Heart palpation

Why ah?

I didn't remember I took any caffeine..

And every breath I take hurts(exaggerated)

It's raining outside!

After I came back from cina stall and CF!

Thank GOD!

Oh what a wonder I wonder You are,

You hide the sun and let it rain~

Pouring food into my stomach..

Had a great lunch...

bbq chicken and lady fingers

Nurani serves delicious bbq chicken!

Yum...

No more spicy food.

My stomach had enough of it.

No,I should say,I should not eat so much spicy food.

Pimples coming out.

After eating a big pack of rice,I feel like eating again!

Sheez,stomach oh stomach...

you ok kah?

GYA GYA GYA~~~~

Journey

On my own feet!

Down to earth...

la la la~

The only thing I enjoy in Kelantan.

Photoshooting.

Other than that,no comment.

I wish I can capture a rainbow.

At least once,here...

Today,I learnt and I tell myself....

Since I've given a life,I have the responsibility to live it to the fullest.

If you never fall,you won't know how to pick yourself up.

I'm glad that things aren't worst,grateful for the healing and thankful for the caring friends.

My sky will still be the same...

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.

It means that you've decided to look beyond imperfection.

Movie day!

I watched 命运化妆师 this morning. Taiwan movie,by Sonia Sui. She is still very elegant and pretty. Quite heavy to watch early in the morning 'coz it is kinda sad. A very complex feeling with complicated plot in it. It made me think for a while. Not recommended for emo and think too much people like me. HAHAHAAHA! But,I tend to like this kinda movie. It is like I can feel what the characters feel.

Next,Hello Stranger. It is a Thai movie filmed in Korea. Apparently,Thai has come out with many nice movie these few years. Oh well,so far I've only watched two love stories. hahahahaha... When I told people,I'm watching Thai movie. People were like ghost film? No,no... That comes to my mind the first time I heard of Thai movie too. Anyway,it's a love comedy. It is hilarious and relaxing,highly recommended if you'd like to laugh out loud. ;)

If happiness is a choice,I choose to be happy. :)

Problem makes us stronger.

Thank You for letting this happened on me.

Each day,I learn to be a better person.

You know how hard it is...

Thus,I beg Thee,

Let me have a place to rest

after my mission has completed.

Life goes on no matter what happened.

I can't cry,

No,I don't want to cry.

No,tears are not allowed!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

I feel like screaming!!!

Anyways,

It's a good start.

I should do it more often.

Take it slowly,

and I'm letting You

to guide..

and heal...

:)

I love Jesus.

Simple kinda friendship

Hey friends,

as long as you don't push me away,

I'll stand by you.

Want a bet?

You can count on me like 1,2,3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it

I can count on you like 4,3,2

you'll be there

'coz that's what friends are suppose to do

Oh yeah~

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry~~~

You can count on me 'coz I can count on you.

-Count on me-

You're the wind.

Love is like the wind,you can't see it

but you can feel it.

Little incident.

Oh Borneo Night

What a bother!

Argghhh....

I can't study!

Partner ah partner,

can you please don't be so kancheong?

you make me very stressed neh...

...........

Calm down..

Phew~

选.择.

恨一个人太累了

我放弃

这都是我自找的

要不是我的心软

你连让我生气的资格

都没有

你无权再动摇我的世界

时间会冲淡一切的

一定会....

A lousy morning

The more you don't want it to happen,

the more it comes against you.

Ants,I really do hate you,you know?

You get on my nerves.

I'm so gonna kill you ALL!!!!

Finally,you've decided to give up,

things come back again.

I DON'T WANT ANYMORE!!!

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LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

URGH! Damnit.

Annoying people in usmkk

When you hate a person,everything he/she does annoyed you.

Absolutely true.

I don't know why until now,I still hate him.

And honestly,I was so happy that he didn't get the post...

I won't vote for you,

mehhhh,loser!

Hohohohoho...

Remember me?

Remember us?

We used to walk together,gossip together,talk together,laugh together,study together,play together,tease each other,hug each other,comfort each other...

Now,we can barely smile to each other and say hi.

Since when?

:)

Hope you're doing well...

Switch.

When every songs you listening

hurt you.

It's time to change channel.

给自以为是的你

无视我的无所谓，

有一天，你会发现，

我留下的空缺，

那时，也许我的无所谓真的，

无所谓了。

这世界没有谁没了谁活不下去，

不然你要怎么解释，

遇见你之前的我，

有多自在，快乐。

你可以继续伤害我，

然后道歉，

伤害，再道歉。。

我会学着

无所谓。。。。

I'm nervous.

I think I'm panic.

because I'm hyper.

According to sister,

This is pre-exam syndrome.

But I don't have exam tomorrow.

Only clinical.

Pre-clinical posting syndrome related to kintio-ness secondary to hyperactive evidenced by patient keep talking talking talking and laughing laughing laughing.

To be honest

Estherification

Yesterday,

one of my junior said why so cold?

Today,a friend of mine,sama batch

said I'm aloof and proud.

My roomate said I'm emo,sometimes.

That I agreed.

HAHAHAHA~~~

I'm like that mah when I don't smile.

I don't know how to show that I'm not.

==

btw,do I look distant when I'm tired??

Or when I'm quiet?