i can do it.

maybe i should keep my holiday extremely busy.
to avoid overeating,oversleeping,overthinking and overspending.
LOLx

gosh,i'm so broke!
need $$!
most importantly
MOTIVATION AND PASSION.
hahaha..
i'm so lifeless and dead these 5 days.
hmmmmmmmmmmm
time to do something.

do we really need you?

20 years passed.

do i still need you?

does this home still need you?

or you're just here to complete the word Family?

when people around say something,

why don't you stand up and explain?

is it because you don't care anymore

or is it because what people said are all truth

can you please do something

if not for our sake,please do it for God,

for yourself maybe?

if you still love this home

if you still wanna protect this home

say something.

show that you care.

and

why are you so mean

you brought darkness

left us with insecurity

surround us with lies

how long would i have to tolerate this

there are so many things i wanted to know

yet don't want to

for i fear

when things become clear

even the toughest man will collapse

should i trust you?

did you betray us?

our faith in you is fading

why are you still

keeping quiet?

Rapunzel

long long time ago...

and they live happily ever after.

another good one,Disney.

this story sounds familiar.

i think someone told me before. haha

like the male character,a very naughty guy. and of course handsome.

like rapunzel's courage.

everybody has a dream. don't you have a dream?

a must must must watch!

i don't seem to enjoy sing k that much... hmmmmm

she should be happy.

she is a girl

who wondered

why a simple thing can become complicated

is it because she insists to make it so

she always expect things to be perfect

things to follow her way

but can't really blame her

if things go beyond her control

should she hold on or give up

she hold on because she still cares

she give up because other people don't

if one day she doesn't care anymore

will people start to care?

a she who lives in me

one day

will i look back the crying moment and laugh

or look back the laughing moment and cry

and tell me why

neither crying nor laughing

why am i feeling so empty?

bad news and good news

gosh,put on so much weight!!!

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

and sore throat. ><

anyway,feeling great to be home.

good thing is worth waiting.

i'm waiting...

ps : ah mi said she missed me. =DD

physical torture.

i don't mind studying until midnight everyday but pls Lord,heal my sore throat and the shoulder pain. i feel very suffering and sick of bearing all these pains. pls pls pls!!!

can't wait!!!

list down the things i gonna do during holiday...
hmmmmm..
ying,py,tyy,jc,li fei,cyy!!!!
you guys ready?
sing k?
bako trip?
lim teh?
everything must include me ya!!!
hehehehehehehe

ps : who wanna go bungee jumping with me????????????????

这是什么鬼地方

天气热到。。。。我头很痛，原本想早点睡。睡睡下，wa piang 热醒了。。

一下不下雨，热死你！要嘛就连续下几天的雨，淹死你！真是的。

别说不“哈啦”的食物，马来节的时候，想找粒米都难，随便有东西吃就可以偷笑了。平时也是吃些辣死你阿妈的咖哩饭。真的很佩服自己这么忍下来的。

不知道是因为天气，还是什么天时，地理，人和因素。这里很多怪怪的不明昆虫。蚊子？逊掉！！叮人很痛的小青？逊掉！！！

这里有世上最毒的charlie先生！！也许我夸张了少少。可是被叮了，毒性就会散发。被叮中脸的，轻则红肿疼痛，严重的有可能会留疤毁容。说曹朝，曹朝就到。刚刚请了一只出去。唉~~

现在还来了整大群的黑臭虫。无敌臭，早上走廊都是它们的尸体。臭到。。。。。。。。不知道会叮人嘛？

其他 o chi pa la 不知道是什么的虫，就不提了。。

总之叻，在这里就真的感觉到很没有安全感。

带我离开这里~~~~~~~~

like this song

痛

心碎了，人累了
很痛，很痛
痛得不想说话
痛得不让泪流
痛得抬不起头
痛得不想在乎
痛得不知道如何安慰自己。。

外面下起雨了
是在代替我哭泣吗？

该面对的，还是得面对
该放下的，就得放下
学习独立，学习忍耐
学习擦干眼泪，抬起头
明天会更好的。

bye first semester.. soon

before i came to university,i had heard many things about university. as in the work load,people,lecturer and all those stuff. thus,i was very curious about how my uni life would turn out to be.

and many friends who had entered college or university before me,have warned me not to take it too serious about friendship or boy n girl relationship. in university,we should "help each other"(use each other in bad way) to get to our goals. i didn't agree,at the same time i didn't disagree. i took precaution thou,when i talk to strangers.

before this,i seriously don't like being here. i felt left out,i felt i've made a wrong decision,i felt like i'm an outsider in a total new strange place. most of the time,i like to be alone and i felt lonely. i felt frustrated,i felt angry,i felt disappointed. i refused to say to anybody including my family because i don't want to complain. you might see me being nice to everyone,i laughed and played,inside it's all empty.

slowly,i get to know CUS people. the first time i feel myself belong to somewhere. in God's house,the church. there is the only place i feel calm and peace. and of course the only time to get away from campus. hahahaha!

slowly,we started to unite. we pray the rosary together. we sing for church choir together. we support one another. we share,laugh and play TOGETHER. yes,i fully participate and enjoy it. now i feel more easy to be in campus for the good Lord have blessed me with many siblings in Christ.

slowly,i've got myself a true friend who i can really talk to. she teaches me many things and influenced me in many ways(both good and bad xP). i would not say we have been thru alot but definitely not little. a friend who i really trusted and wish to cherish for a lifetime. and thanks for telling me what you told me just now. i feel exactly the same too. you've shown to me,i'm not an outsider and make me believe in many things.

slowly,i learned to tolerate and accept many things regardless good or bad. i thank God for everything i've been thru in these few months. i guess thats how He shape me into a better person especially thru different trials.

for now,i no longer hate this place. instead,i think i'll have a very memorable uni life here. no,i mean i'll make my uni life a memorable experience.

each day,i wish to get closer to God and do what You require,Lord. please continue to bless me,bless my family and my friends. for we,need Your blessing in everything we do and may everything we do give glory to Thee.

be happy.

Jesus teaches me to be happy. read this

-true happiness matt 5:3-12-

matt 5:6
happy are those whose greatest desire to do what God requires ; God will satisfy them fully!

God,teach me to do Your will. Amen.

=DD

don't bother much anymore

that much.
freedom starts from the day i don't care that much.
don't seek for approval from others
don't depend on others
i can take care of myself
that much
=))

no confidence

thank you for putting me in Here. maybe i shouldn't doubt about how much you sayang me. for all you know,it's not that i don't believe you. it's just that i don't have the confidence in myself.
when we're with our friends,i feel so reluctant to really talk to you as i don't feel myself needed. i want you to be happy. you can always mix around with people and you're actually laughing and have fun. when we play or talk,it turns up to be an unhappy or tiring or serious matter. i find it difficult and confused why i always upset people that i care the most. many people can go on telling me how much they love me but sometimes i just feel myself unwanted.

i blame no one. sometimes,it's just this strong jealousy that i have to deal with it myself. i missed the time we walked back from htd to blok B. we didn't really talk much. that night,you texted me "thank you for being myself". i always try to find back that feeling for being myself,at the same time we're close to each other.

i don't really like her and i hate myself the most. honestly,i feel threatened when we're with her. i think she can easily replace me. and i somehow sensed that i've been compared with her. told you i'm very sensitive and possessive. when there's no longer 'the thing' between you and me,i'd just give up. i haven't accepted her as a part of us yet. maybe time will bring 3 of us together. for now,i don't want yet. she did nothing wrong,so yea.. actually it's kinda unfair to her. i'll try to befriend with her. seriously,i'll try... i need time.

thank God for them

there's a place called home. there are people called family.

basically i only feel happy and existing on thursday and friday.

other than that,i'm like dead.

influenced.

i seriously don't like clowns.
i think they are creepy!!!!
urgh.. especially when you watch too much of crime investigation series.
they always involved clowns as the criminal.
regardless it's hk,singapore,ang moh...
clowns are always the kidnappers.
ishhh.. don't like don't like!
and i hate balloon.
=\

sorry esther song

i forgive you.

love story.

just read this. i somehow like it.

a couple who broke up for a few years
one day,met each other on the street.

boy : how are you?
girl : good.
boy : how is he?
girl : good.

girl : how are you?
boy : good.
girl : how is she?
boy : she just told me she's good.

perhaps not every relationship can work out. sad ending can be beautiful because at least they loved each other deeply before.

share with you la,someone.

how awesome a kid song can cheer me up! XD

the room is all mine!! yeah,i should be happy but why am i not?
actually i quite like it this way.
i get to play the songs loud,
i get to do whatever i wanna do,
walk here walk there..
and finally,i get to go into youtube,
barney,i love you?
since when i watched that video?
then i recalled back.
LOLx
i had fun singing with barney.

dedicate to my family and friends :
i love you
you love me
we're happy family
with a great big hug
and a kiss from me to you
won't you say you love me too?

i love you
you love me
we're best friends
like friends should be
with a great big hug
and a kiss from me to you
won't you say you love me too?

don't forget to tell your family and friends,you love them.
don't wait.

and thank you,lucky star.
i love you to bits!

key and keychain

keychain can never be the key
to open and enter the heart,

let it be the keychain
to accompany the key.

one day,
when the key has decided to open the door,
keychain will be the first one to know.

who's the keychain?

who's the key?

we are?

when we have things to talk then we talk.
when we have nothing to say,none of us try to start the conversation.
but we know we are always there for each other.
this is so real and the best friendship.

true friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable. -unknown-

some people are just too loud.

a day escape

phew.

avoid the alarm,
avoid the light,
avoid the knocking of the door,
avoid disturbance
for one day.

imitate pei kit~ knock the door as if a fire disaster had happened,open the door,that sweet potato(fan shu) again.. really ah!!!

thank God,finally she realized.

xDD

amazing black ducks! LOLx

studying and suddenly my msg alert rang. accidentally,saw my phone wallpaper,

and i smile. =))

i definitely miss my lucky star alot.

it's a night post/morning

after reflection,then i realize there's sth very wrong with me. LOLx. i want what i want is what i normally say and act. i'm always very eager to show my desire and enthusiasm. and maybe due to stubbornness/kiasuness,most of the time,i want things to happen according to my way. jump out of my lil zone, can actually see things clearer. it takes time,passion,and perhaps some luck to see the result. being bullheaded is bad.

next step,i'll learn to be patient and let things fall into place naturally. don't force. study,still need to study. but try not to give myself so much pressure. i don't wish to become bald by the time i graduate. happy-go-lucky is the attitude i should pick up again. wahahahahahahhahaha

feel like playing chess,anyone?

sudden strike.

new friends
never overlap
your world
i guess i'm always at the border

not that i don't understand
like this also not bad
something i don't put into words
can care about you once again
has always been that something
that keep me moving

let time bleach away all the sadness
i try to tolerate
the life after you left
didn't cover purposely
not being honest to you either
are you still there?

loving you give me strength,
being loved back give me courage
i guess that's why
i have no guts to tell you
i love you
at the same time
i understand
love's predestined by fate
meticulous to be the one you like
i'm tired of it

it's you,it's you~~

i think michael buble songs are so suitable for studying. hahaha

*humming*

=)))

if you believe

pig not only can climb tree

IT can fly~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH

压力？

一天内，看见两个朋友在你面前崩溃。

我不是很会安慰人，可是

你的泪水，我愿意用肩膀为你分担。

加油！

6.10.2010

panda eyes and beautiful sky!

sabar tabah

my mind is more complex than this. @.@

they know how to make notes or not? so complicated. ==

really don't like mind map. especially when you know you hatta convert all this into essay during exam. !@#@#%#^%^$#&^&(*&(*^

一个头，两个大！

i think

i'm progressing because i'm struggling.

>< control~!

happy moment

birthday is meant to be remembered and celebrated. get a birthday cake and the party is on! having your family and friends to sing a birthday song,blow candles(you can have three wishes before this =D) and icing fight is a must.

i've thrown many surprise party for my friends. most extreme one,went to lisa's house at 12am,call her out,put the cake on top of the car and drive thru! love the surprised face. and i'm always the one who start the icing face drawing. end up kena attacked by others. hahaha.. yay,i had fun! i miss my family,they are always there to celebrate for me. da jie,the organiser has always tried so hard to hold the family bond together. go makan,birthday cake,laughter,play cards,squeeze together to watch tv,take photos....

next year,i'm far away from them. hope someone actually remember and bother to text me or write me a short note in fb. they will,i know. kill them if they don't. hahaha! coz they are my friends. i deserve and appreciate their blessing and wishes. hahahaha.. and i don't care,i'm going to tumpang big fat sheep's birthday on december and celebrate mine! LOLx

birthday means alot to me. everyone deserves a warm-hearted one. =)) no one can be left out including me!!!

halo,it's just november. =X

;P

thoughts

seriously,i need to be more independent. there's no such thing as who can't live without who. if this really exists,how would you explain the year before you met that person? better don't think too much. i guess i just missed home.

i'm like a bird.. no matter how far i fly,i'll always want to go home because i know someone is waiting for me to come back. as the music hit my eardrum,i really wish i can sing out loud! 3 more weeks,i'll be home and go sing k!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

sometimes,people were just joking,don't bother too much and do whatever i think is right. yea,i should be more carefree and brave.

study week no study.

studying(action2) while eating while playing games while listening to songs while chatting while talking to roommies while sms-ing..... wow wow wow! i'm quite good in multitask also. LOLx

just now...
shs : hey,so early
py : ya,working. you also so early,jogging?
shs : no,it rains since yesterday.
py : then you should be sleeping.
shs : ah moi,10am dy
py : aunty,10am ONLY

hahaha.. it sounds like a mum talking to her daughter. muahahahahahaha!

rainy day.. no outdoor activities,and i'm bored. =PPPppP

when will i see the rainbow and the sunshine again?!?!???