Thursday, June 30, 2011

Two

Raining.
Daddy still outside.
I'm hungry.
Taufu soup in microwave...

Monday, June 27, 2011

Choice.

3 things I want.
But can only choose one.
HTC handphone
HP pavillion g4 laptop
Canon 500D DSLR

Oh God,help me to choose WISELY!
please please please...

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Back to simplicity.

Started to love my short hair.
Ya,perhaps life should be like this.
Simple and just nice.
Awesome.
:)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Memo.

No problem is bigger than God.
No other spirit is stronger than God.
Do not be afraid and do not worry.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Talked to uncle just now
I guess he's the one God sent
To inspire and encourage me
Yes,kinda gloomy and emo these days
Should stop it
Trying to...

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Feedbacks.





"Aiyo,why cut your hair? so sayang leh."
"New hair style,NICE!"
"Short and long hair suit you hoh!?"
"Short hair suits her better,she don't know how to tie her hair"
"You look so CUTE!"
"You cut your hair???"
"Next time I come,don't want to see your hair get shorter again."
"WHY CUT UNTIL SO SHORT?"
"受到什么刺激?"
"I remembered your hair was short last time right?"
"Sui leh,wa su kak"
"................"
O.O
and more...

Hahahahaha...
I get all sort of funny comments.
I think my eyes become bigger after cutting my hair.
LOL.
Long hair,short hair,I'm still Song Hui Sang.
That's what matter.
:))

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I'll be waiting for you.

I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it.

So long....until we meet again.
:)

Monday, June 20, 2011

人之所以痛苦是因為追求錯誤的東西。

Barbering.


Shower on.
Oops.
I lost my pony tail.
hahaha..
No,I don't feel my head lighter
coz I don't have much hair on top previously also.
LOL.
Yeah,I cut my hair.
Phew~ Finally,right?
Real short.
He even used a shaver.
Imagine the shortness due to my sot-ness.
I won't post any picture.
Keep it more secretive and low profile this time.
LOL.
Lame excuse.
=P

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Good to be home.

妈妈说:人在江湖,身不由己。

==|||

Muahahhahaha,my mum is so the very cute.

我不甘心

又能怎样

!!老板是俗辣!!

Friday, June 17, 2011

I ask you

Love me
or not

Note to myself

True
There is nothing wrong in loving a person,wanting the things you want
but doing the right thing is above these all.
You can be very cool,very hardworking,very preservative
but sometimes things just don't happen that way
and you should know that doesn't belong to you.
If you don't know,others will tell you.
If others tell you,you don't accept,
that's called stupid and it's time to wake up
If it will cause a disaster,leave it as soon as possible
There is no need to sweat about it.

Like.

Found a website to watch series.
This is so exciting!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

泪水敲在手臂上
好大,好大力

我也不想要这样。

Down.

回到那开心唱歌,单纯拍照的日子。。。
我是不是回不去了?
我好难过哦~~
TT-TT

我是她吗?

有个人
不爱孤独却老是一个人
不爱吵闹却老爱戴着随身听
不爱哭泣却老爱看悲剧
乐观却对人生充满着无奈而无奈
相信爱却不相信人包括自己

有个人
有一天
会对着不小心洒在地上的公仔面崩溃哭泣
然后再擦干眼泪,拍拍胸口,安慰安慰自己
把面煮了,一口气把面吃了
就像把所有的委屈,不愉快吞进肚子里
让它们变成大便,最后冲进马桶里。
过程也许会让你消化不良,
可是大便始终是大便,有害健康。
自古以来,身体都有保护自己的能力,
伤心会过去的。

在还没找到让自己不坚强的理由
她情愿一个人,继续坚强
也许有点逞强,
也许有点任性
可是懦弱哭泣的自己实在很丑耶!
那感觉太糟糕了。

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Teach me what to do.

Ignoring and forgetting doesn't make me feel better.
It just hurts again when I remember.

Should I press the delete button then?

Monday, June 13, 2011

Life is colourful.

Honestly,my job once made me so inferior.
My boss criticize about my appearance.
Everything I did sounded so wrong and stupid.
When I look into the mirror,I just hate myself...
that much, so much, too much.

Saturday was a bad day.
This happened when two person giving opinion.
No idea who to follow and people kept changing their mind.
That confused me.
And whatever shyt happen,I'm the one to be blamed.
That was unfair.
Sorry lo,you not in good mood is your business.
Scolded me without knowing the whole story,
I'm gonna show you my super black face.
And it's absolutely alright if you don't dare to talk to me.
Anything just push your wife.
I really beh tahan you lo.
Come on,be a man.

Yesterday was ok.
Happy to catch up with coussie.
We did facial,bake some bread,coffee and basically chit-chatting.
You know,gossip and stuff.
It's a relieve to throw out all my anger
and having someone to support you.
WOW,Best!
Only sisters and real best friends do that.
Family will always be there for you.
Encourage and enlighten.
I love them so much.

Oh ya,talking about my appearance.
I'm not ugly,I'm not pretty either.
But why keep criticizing my face and my hair?
I really very pek chek lo.
Can you pls tell me exactly how a waitress should look like?
Oh well,cousin helped me tie up my hair yesterday.
People like my hair including myself! =D
And he seemed to be pleased.
But I don't really care about his compliment already.
They sound so fake.
Prejudice.
I know right!
What to do,once you're hurt,it takes time to heal.
My heart was broken by your unintentional words.

Anyway,
be positive
keep improving myself
and be happy.

When I was down,You raise me up and tell me You love me. Thank You,Jesus. I know it's You who wipe my tears when I cried. :) May my weakness makes me a better person and all the Glory to You alone,now and forever. Amen

Saturday, June 11, 2011

New friend.


Nice to meet you.

Friday, June 10, 2011

little thing I do.

Downloading more songs for my phone and mp3 player.
Wow,what a happy thing to do.
Bruno Mars oh Bruno Mars... Why are you so lovely?
:D

My shoulder and my arm sore...
I thought it is an easy job.
It seems like I'm wrong.
Oh well,shouldn't give up half way.
I pray that I can work during daytime.
Then I won't have to tidy up the place,
carry those tables and chair,
pulling the heavy aluminum gate or whatever you call it...
which give me muscle pain.
:)
SORE THROAT.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Been thru alot.

I cried,
I prayed,
I learnt,
I forgive myself,
and I move on.

Something bad do happen.
My emotion seriously affected.

First,I didn't get the result I wanted aka dean list.
Instead my pointer dropped.
Of course I felt disappointed....very.
Oh well,learn from it and move on.
Biochemistry,I don't know why I couldn't get it this semester.
Probably because of all the pathways and stuff.
I'm not trying to find excuses for myself.
But seriously Biochemistry got me killed this time.
I only got a B.
and I remember I burnt midnight oil to study Biochemistry.
Last minutes effort can only get me a B.
Although kinda hard to accept,I accepted it.
I've tried my best.
I'll try harder.

Second,yesterday.
Regarding my job...
Everything went well..
Until the last bit.
Shyt,the last table didn't pay and they just went off.
Me,who in charge of cashier have to tanggung la.
40 bucks man. My two days salary.
Heart really aching lo.
But I learnt something last night.
I realized I have a very high EQ(waiseh).
My boss actually said alot to comfort me,
but at that time all the words sting.
I felt like I'm insulted.
I just hold my tears and drove home.
When I came home,my parents were still awake.
which is weird because normally they will be dreaming already.
Then I asked them why don't go to bed yet.
My mum said wait for you to come back.
Oh yeah,then I realized it is 12.30am already.
you know,counting the money and settle the problem...
I was late home and mum worried about me.
I just kept quiet and rushed to bathroom.
the tears couldn't hold anymore.
I wish to tell my mum what happened but I didn't.
Don't want to worry her anymore.
I thought I can just ignore it and go to bed.
But there's a rock on my chest,I can't sleep just yet..
wake up,pray the rosary while crying.
In the midst of prayer,I heard someone said
"treat yourself as someone else."
To feel,you need to be yourself.
To realize something,you need to be someone else.
I tried to see myself as my friend.
I guess most of the time,I've been too strict to myself.
Time to like you know,be more lenient to myself.
I can't always be so careful to avoid mistakes.
Something just bound to happen.
I need to forgive myself and stop feeling useless.
Slowly,my prayer guide me...
And I tell God,I'm gonna forgive myself and move on.
Jesus heals and take away my shame.
He is good. Praise Him. :)

Basically these are the two main thing that bothered me.

Society university,
The school I'm attending recently.
Growing up.