running away is a way but not a Good and God way

had a nightmare,dream about failure in examination. i suppose i had not gone through the trauma yet.. wake up and try to think of it. is it because do i really let go all the unhappy past? or i'm just suppressing the affliction? after a short reflection,i realized that i've never walk through it because I've never learnt from my mistakes. everyday,every year i'm just doing the same thing,and end up with same result. perhaps i don't even know why i fail. put it this way, i stood up each time i fell just merely because i kept saying to myself i have to be strong.. it's time to do something. i know God want me to do something but i just choose ignore it whenever i face difficulties. procrastinating and last minute work, hurt people and get hurt... i'm not happy with myself,i'm not satisfied with my life. there's something within me is missing.. when darkness comes, who,where,how shall i lay my burden down?

pray.. i solemnly pray

Jesus said : "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Lord, here i offer the broken pieces of me and put my faith on You. heal me and guide me with Your grace and love. Amen

just in case you guys forgot how i look like

before and after..

ya.. see the difference. i become darker,my hair grow longer,get thinner,and panda eyes! gosh.. what a uni life. =P

nth better to do

why am i waking up so early neh? thank to my roommates who stay up for the whole night without d light off. then,me.. super sensitive to light,didn't get quality and quantity sleep that i need... those who never learn from mistakes,even if he stand up,he is more likely to fall again. Ignorant... nvm,bear with it! two more weeks,go home..

university life is busy,undeniable.. but i enjoy it! so many things happened and i don't know how to put in words regardless the happy or the pain. meet many great people. it's like going back to secondary school campur national service. where you hatta study at the same time do laundry. urgh! after half year working,i really feel very happy that i'm a student again. hope it'll be the best part of my life. i know it will..

anger

i don't really want to pollute my blog by revealing the ugly part of university life. But,that's life!! i experiencing everything my best friends told me before. the people here are not much different as other places,i suppose. i see hypocrisy,jealousy,sarcasm... how a person breaks his/her promise due to some benefits.. how a person can be so selfish that he/she doesn't want to tell you something you're suppose to know.. how people treat you nicely in front of others at the same time, backstabbing you.. well,do they do all that because i threaten them? i never thought of fighting with anyone,noob! and if you think you can put me down by doing all those dirty threat,i feel sorry for you.. because you'll never ever succeed. SH*T!

worst still,i don't seem to find anyone i can talk to. i miss talking to er jie, ivy, ying, lisa, nana, jen, py, yy, yan yan, carm, connie, theresa, pik yun... anyone i used to pour out my emotion...

i've had enough of it. it's time to stand up for myself and don't blame me if my bullets kena you!

ARRRRRRRR

there's time like this..
when one feels stressful and pessimistic.
i come here to study
not to socialize with all the seniors
and listen to the stupid endless seminars
at least not every weekends
sickening man!

forgive me,didn't sleep well for like a few weeks dy..
a bit hormonal imbalance i guess
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Activate Inactivity

"Music is the space between notes"

-Claude Debussy-

~Creating empty spaces in life is essential

don't forget to take a break. =))