Saturday, July 11, 2009

不想长大的星级五


突然有种不想长大的感觉。总觉得大人的世界好复杂哦。像我现在酱没大没小,我是说不大不小..唉~该这么说呢?
不想当个小孩,所以试着从大人们中找寻自认适合的外套披上。可是,不是那里太窄,就是那里不舒服..我的孩子啊,衣服穿在自己身上,生活是要自己慢慢体验的。世界上没有一个人是和自己百分百相似的。也就是说除了自己的外套,没有一件是最适合自己的了。是的,我们可以和别人同穿一件,可是感觉就是不一样,少了一点归属感。
你的生活,你主宰,你做到了吗?我还在努力。过些年,也许我会比较清楚我想要得是什么吧?
我承认我不是极端的人,我的世界没有百分百的白或黑,我只是在灰色地带游荡,感觉平衡的小瓜。船到桥头自然直,别问我如果的事因为我相信事情发生时,在我心里的神会告诉我该怎么做。前阵子,读了一本书,里头提到的哲学满可爱的,值得参考:
把自己当别人
把别人当自己
让别人当别人
让自己当自己
不是绕口令哦! 以我的理解是:
1。对自己严苛得来,又要懂得适时的包容,接受自己的缺点,勿把得失看得太重。
2。对待身边的人应该如对待自己一样,这样世界不是更美好吗?
3。尊重个人有个人的想法,不要侵犯别人的内心世界。这样自然可以得到别人的尊重。
4。忠于自己,只要问心无愧。千万别为了讨好身边的人而迷失了自己。能够讨好每个人的,大概只有小丑吧?
青春期的小孩,爱胡思乱想,就是偶!我不想长大!!! 哈哈哈哈~ 心智上我希望我自己是成熟的。但愿是。。。

Thursday, July 9, 2009

forgetful thursday


i forgot to attend astronomy club AGM this afternoon. -.-||| holding a post of vice president,i truly felt ashamed of that.. sorry ya! anyway,hope everything goes well without me. it was rather easy to be a club vice president,all you need to do is attend every meetings and you got the marks. especially those inert club like my club ;) hahhaa..

let's talk about some current issues. as you all know,MJ passed away week ago. i actually don't have any special feeling toward this news. just feel kinda sorry and sad that a great singer had left us suddenly. there's absolutely a concrete reason why MJ's well known as the king of pop. just look at his dancing style,great voice(especially when he sang that song.. "you're not alone,i'm here with you...") undeniable,many people had actually imiatated his performance like his dancing etc. i think God has His own reason in calling MJ back at that moment. think about this,if he didn't die,he's going to carry out 50 concerts around the whole world. does his health allow him to cope with this heavy work load? can he still perform as great as before? will people keep on hitting and critising him after those performance? can he take those critism openly and live for himself? hmmm,something to ponder. well,his body has dead but not his spirit,music,passion in dancing... he's considered a very successful man in his career and he did bring lotsa entertainment and love to people around us. MJ,may you rest in peace.

other than that,i heard that government is going to change english back to bahasa malaysia in teaching science and maths. it was rather a disappointing decision for me lo. why give up? they should improve the english level instead of tolerant. i understand that one should know their national language(BM) well. there are many other subjects taught in bm dy le. you can make bm as a compulsory subject but why not english? when students reach form 6,science and maths will be taught in english again? WHAT? how do you expect student to do well in their public exam? all those scientific terms,no kidding man. if we don't learn since early stage,students will be in deep trouble. hope malaysia government can be more considerate and think twice before they take any action.
p/s all those textbooks that gov decided to give out free before,how? all throw away and get new books? why waste money like that? i think malaysia just need to be more persistent lo.. there's always difficulties in starting point. find solution,not excuses!!! if bm in teaching science and maths doesn't work,are they going to change back to english again?? hmmmm.. good luck,juniors.

sigh,talk so much. tired liao. bye

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

wawa~ wednesday.


pissed off! how can those people took me for granted!!! urghh.. control control.. rashes bump out when i got angry. or is it because i didn't take bath? i did le.. hehee xD well,why punish myself since other people did wrong? so,forgive and don't forget.. i spend money for lesson(ALWAYS.. can't help,i stupid) lol. thou not my money,also sim tiah. =(

don't know since when i enjoy being alone. i went for a walk just now. simply love the feeling. no distraction,everything is so peaceful and it seemed like all my worries is carried away by the tender wind. nice.. it's good to slow down. that 10 minutes was the most perfect moment for the day. =)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

无聊的星级二


今天早上下了说大不大,说小不小的雨。下雨天嘛,当然是心不甘情不愿的起床,懒懒散散得去学校啦! 发现这样的早晨也不错。突然想起王立宏的一首歌-if you listen to the rhythm of failing rain,那是春雨领洗过的太阳。真的,下过雨的天空很美,阳光也很warm,不会像平时那么晒死人不偿命。

今天的课,和平常一样咯。只是我上了4节的数学,只作了4题练习。可想而知,我的数学是多么的。。你说呢? 哈哈。。不过,别人也差不多,那也许是对我小小的欣慰吧!哈。。

下午来个小偷懒,在家睡了两个小时,没有去图书馆报到。哈哈。。爽啊!游手好闲了一个下午。晚上,算是有念到书了,organic chemistry,至少比physical和organic好念多了。那两本不是人念的(相信我)。哈哈哈。。为什么会念organic?当然又是因为那'我必须参与,又未必享受的事'咯。还是在下午的extra class.只能说-哀怨阿~不过,我还好。明天是朋友生日,又碰巧是考试期,真可怜。我会帮你庆祝的,sushi,别伤心。很多人耗了一辈子,也没这个荣幸。

啊!!新买的手表没电了!!像屎一样,气死我了! 中看不中用的东西!!!

Monday, July 6, 2009

黑色星期一


4个字来形容我现在的心情-力不从心! 总觉得礼拜一过得很快,但又是最难熬的。很像一切从零开始那种感觉。我不知道该怎么看待我现在的情况,只能说比上不足,比下有余。以我的角度来说是夹在中间,一事无成。真的,我可以很明显的察觉到那自卑感慢慢的侵略。只是天生爱面子的我,就是不服输。一个人可以用高傲的外表示人,可是夜深人静时,还是掩饰不了心中的空虚。我不忧郁,可是就是有点无奈。我知道凡事都要一步一步来,不该怀疑。可是。。可是。。。唉~总之就是烦啦!我的信心从我手中流走,现在我要亲手把你争取回来。哪里跌倒,就该哪里爬起来!唯一愿望--不要放弃,就有奇迹。加油! =)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

=X

no school!! Wahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahaahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahaha

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

我的心情日记


唉~ (原来我真得很爱叹气,哈哈)
困扰了吗? 不,只是爱发牢骚。。
现在的我除了读书,还是得读书。
我只能说考试,那是我必须参与,但又未必享受事。
我要收身养性。。已经在慢慢调整心情了,情况很乐观。
在这二十个星期内,如果看见我,请帮帮忙提醒我:我必须念书! 哈哈哈。。
be persistent,people! daring to pursue your dream is the very first step to success =)